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There are waxes and wanes
The best way I can think of to describe it is that every little thing becomes a big thing. Menial tasks become difficult, non-menial tasks impossible. And you don’t want to talk about your problems, because they aren’t real, and the more you don’t talk about them the less real they become. When actually, part of you is embarrassed to talk about ( Read more... ) -
here, there
Here are the first telltale signs. It's an easy cop-out, and you know it; it's as painfully obvious as the blood stain on your pants. The easy admission is, my heart pangs, the kind of pangs that accompany surprising news or crippling nostalgia or a sadness so deep you could drown in it. And it crosses your mind for a moment, how stupid this is, ( Read more... ) -
11 March 2014
Not last night, but the night before, I had a dream that came straight out of a movie - okay, not as refined as that, but the premise and ending were very dramatic and movie-like. Not even really the premise, actually, now that I think about it. I don't remember exactly what was going on, except that I was annoyed because my boyfriend wasn't giving ( Read more... ) -
05 March 2014
It's been difficult thinking of things to write about just because each day of break has been about the same ( Read more... ) -
01 March 2014
I’m writing this entry late and posting it even later because I don’t feel like going to my friend’s room and using her internet cable. My laziness knows no bounds, but it’s also partly the fact that I’m on my period and don’t feel like moving. After so much partying, I don’t think I have the energy. Today was a pretty low-key day. I got lunch with ( Read more... ) -
26 February 2014
All things considered, I thought it would be a lot later when I finally got around to finishing everything I needed to get done, so this is a pleasant surprise even if it's already past two in the morning and I have to get up at eight. Which, actually, considering some of my friends' sleep schedules, is a decent nights' sleep. But I'm usually the ( Read more... ) -
25 February 2014
Yesterday's entry was ridiculously long. I mean, I knew by the topics I wanted to talk about that it would be long, but I didn't expect to actually write that much, especially since it'd gotten late and due to my lack of motivation I started and ended my inorganic chemistry homework late. Today is something of the same story. I can't find it in ( Read more... ) -
24 February 2014
Alternative title to today: Drama, Drama, Everywhere ( Read more... ) -
23 February 2014
This happens every time. Every weekend is the same jaded result to the same over-trodden story. I waste away my Saturdays with aimless distraction, all the while telling myself I'll just do all my work on Sunday. Sunday comes around and I can't for the life of me find motivation for anything productive. Prior knowledge should assert that I should ( Read more... ) -
22 February 2014
Here are some unposted comments to the same person I ranted about yesterday. (Though it's not so much one person but a cancer-like, pervasive line of thought.) They remain unposted because in the minute after I write them that I spend considering whether posting them would really be the best idea, the part of my conscience that actually cares ( Read more... )