Agent J2 ( Read more... )

I've come to the realization that my 'scared to get close to someone and spend all my time with them' attitude towards anyone I want to be romantic with is utter bullshit. (a) All of my life, I've always hung around either one person or one specific and secluded group of people. They always end up being the only people that I spend my time with. ( Read more... )

It's always kind of odd talking to Agent J (previously Lover J) again because he knows me really well. This time, he had gotten around to talking to me about his latest hook-ups and such. It was kind of weird to hear about them, not for any reason like I'm the one that wants to be hooking-up with him or anything like that, just because I guess I ( Read more... )

Agent J2's away message says "not amused" and all the stuff in his profile, including the stuff that's nice and sweet about me is missing. Should I be worried? Well, I kind of am. >>tries to let it roll off my back, but it very obviously isn't working<< I really wish that I was able to spend more time with him, but duh, it's obviously not something ( Read more... )

Okay. So, I think I've been riding way too much on all this idealism. I just talked to Agent Be about how everyone got really drunk the other night. According to her, everyone, when they're collected together, have been discussing it and such. I was thinking maybe this was a time for her to talk about how she fooled around with a chick, and how it' ( Read more... )

"I can't see myself doing this for four years."

This, something that agent J2 said to me when I was talking about being worried about the future with him, where we're going and such, really really upsets me. I imagine myself holding my Squirtle really tightly as I try to go to bed and just crying a whole lot. I haven't really much thought about it ( Read more... )

Packing equals packing up a lot of different things. I can just see myself with all these different suitcases walking down an unfamiliar street

Oh my god. Oh my god. So I met Agent J2 today. Holy shit, he was so fucking hot. I really like how thusfar I'm not crazy lovey-dovey with him and all and the beginning, but rather, it's this whole friendship that's developing even though I'll entirely be gushing and gushing over him like woah. I mean, I wouldn't be able to say many things about ( Read more... )

Wow. Dick. I don't fucking care if what Agent D is saying is true, but I get really pissed off if he only says it when he's drunk. I'm even more angry now that it was a time when I was, I don't know, feeling better about him. I mean, duh, I was just, like, massively high and touched by what he said. Now it's just like, crushed into ashes. For a few ( Read more... )

I realize that, since I began my relationship with Lover J so fast, I never quite got to experience the whole "dating" situation that happens before people start dating. I would like to know what a person is like intimately before I were to date them, for the sake of stopping an incident such as the two of us lying there, and this figure of my ( Read more... )