I am not in any danger.

( Mentions suicide )

My little sister and I. I love how my mother was happy for me to wear clothes like that and have that haircut (bad as it was) at that age.


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( Frequent use of the f-word )

Aargh. I do this every year at this time of year. Ok, I don't celebrate Christmas. I haven't done since I was 16 (apart from a couple of times because of great pressure from my ex and the last Christmas with Alex that I will write about one day). I'm not a Christian. I'm against conspicuous consumption and the craziness of the huge amount of ( Read more... )

Phoebe laughed at this:

I am lonely, but I find it difficult to be around people.You can comment, using interesting insults (I'm sure that'd be ok with her ( Read more... )

I'm really nervous. Someone on one of the LJ communities I advertised transfabulous on said that the tickets are selling out, so I'm going to pop off to Bethnal Green late this afternoon to pick up my tickets. I'm nervous because a) I've never been to any sort of trans event and b) I'm still in the midst of a depression that leaves me feeling ( Read more... )

Before I went to AJ's, I decided that I wouldn't tell her about either my name-change or my gender struggles. She will hopefully be at the handfasting... all of the other people there know about my new name and many of those planning on coming know about my gender issues. I'm scared of her rejecting me (unlikely) and I'm scared of her interrogating ( Read more... )

We've just come back from a visit to my aunt's house. foibey got to meet my family, yay :-) Aunty Joan didn't seem to impressed with the handfasting thing, but she really welcomed foibey. Hopefully they will attend the ceremony though. We played dominos and a board game called Topix (or Topics, not sure). Talked about some serious family stuff i.e. my father ( Read more... )

I feel reaaly shite this morning. I have two noisy neighbours: one on the same floor as me, one underneath. The next floor one was playing R 'n' B up to and beyond 3 a.m. S/he lives right next to my bedroom, and the music makes my radiator vibrate. Today I am introducing the lovely foibey to my family (maternal aunt and her husband), and I am pissed off ( Read more... )

foibey and I will be visiting her family today. I really hope I don't have too much of the dreaded christmas thrust upon me. It'll be the second time I've met 80% of them (yet to meet the third child, Hannah). So I'm nervous. We don't have much else planned today. Possibly me singing/foibey accompanying on guitar (she's a much better player than me ( Read more... )