i'm going home today, to the old, the familiar. i'm afraid it'll feel strange, but i'm also afraid that it won't feel strange at all. life is a funny thing, and so is time. it's strange to think that if things had turned out differently, this whole week of my life would have been spent in completely different way ( Read more... )

I don't really feel like any of this is real. I wish I could return to the old days, and just relax and have a cigarette and dream of a great future, of a great life.

I don't want to face this harsh reality that now, I'm living that future I dreamed about and it's nothing like how I imagined it would be.

Out of all my journals, I think this is the prettiest. I don't even have the heart to change it ( Read more... )

who do i keep trying to bring the past back?
i need to find a way to let go.
this hurts way too much.

College life is exhausting.
But I think I'll be okay.

But I'm driven by a passion, is it only there to tame ( Read more... )

My trip to Missouri was amazing, but I really had a lot of time to think. This isn't necessarily a bad thing, though, except that sometimes I tend to overreact when I think too much, or I over-analyze every little thing almost to the death of it ( Read more... )

I.am.tired.of.settling ( Read more... )

You really have no right, to talk to me like that or look at me like that with those droopy eyes of yours and the way you placed your arm on my shoulder and tried to look into my eyes ( Read more... )

Last Friday we saw the movie "Joseph: King of Dreams" in youth group and wrapped up the section we've been doing on Joseph ( Read more... )