Comments | notarrowette: [17] This breakdown's been a while in coming

notarrowette

[17] This breakdown's been a while in coming

Jul 08, 2010 04:35

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[It's possible Cissie hasn't slept, and maybe that she's more than a little drunk. She drank Beatty's vodka, sorry Beatty. This is just not her week. She looks exhausted and this entire rambling rant is delivered with a whole lot of apathy.]First: The library is fine. Nothing happened. Beatty's in Zero for the time being for ( Read more... )

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easy_aspie July 8 2010, 08:43:11 UTC

I think - sometimes - it's about being there, being supportive, being willing to listen and work things out on their own, until they're ready for help. Until they want to be better people. Because, I mean, like you said, making them miserable and forcing progress isn't genuinely helping anyone.

As for the trust thing... you just have to go with your gut, I guess? It's hard when you want to believe the best in everyone, and it can be scary taking risks like that, but that's all I know. Trust who feels right, a-and hope it doesn't come back to bite you in the butt.

I have a hug with your name on it for the next time I see you in person.

[Private and still slightly drunk] notarrowette July 8 2010, 08:55:27 UTC

The thing is, I thought that's what I was doing. But Beatty still--I have to get him to believe that everything he's ever known is wrong. He's going mad, and I feel like--like it's partly my fault.

I tried. I did trust him and he was hiding things from me and now I don't know if I should, but how many chances do you give someone? And if other people say not to trust him, should I listen to them or to me?

Thanks, Ned. I'm sorry. I... I don't know what's wrong with me.

[Private] easy_aspie July 8 2010, 23:26:45 UTC

You're confused, and upset, and someone you tried to help betrayed your trust and undid all the good things you did for them. There's nothing wrong with feeling how you do.

I... I don't have the answers. I'm sorry. We just have to keep being open and trying, I think that that's all we can really manage.

[Private] notarrowette July 10 2010, 06:39:46 UTC

Thank you, Ned. I guess there aren't actually answers to those things, but--you're right. I think it's just a lot of things all happening at once, you know?

empirical_data July 8 2010, 09:32:19 UTC

I am glad someone got to her, I was concerned.

Am I mistaken in believing that most of the individuals that are Wardens came here to help others? [A very honest question, without a hint of sarcasm because he's playing in a whole other ball park.]

notarrowette July 8 2010, 22:10:47 UTC

[Later, when she is sober and thoroughly embarrassed. What a first impression!]

She's all right. This happens sometimes; people either vanish or basically fall asleep for a while. They're usually fine when they wake up, at least.

And no, you're not. Though some are here more for the deal they made with the Admiral.

I'm, uh. Sorry. There's been a lot going on and I guess it got to me. I'm not usually so pessimistic. Anyway. I'm Cissie.

empirical_data July 9 2010, 01:04:25 UTC

I'm Data. Unfortunately alcohol can lead frequently to such pessimism in great quantities.

Perhaps realism is a good alternative. Some of us do genuinely want to help, and I note many of the Wardens have been excellent advisers to me.

notarrowette July 10 2010, 07:21:25 UTC

Hello, Data. Um... yeah. I don't--usually drink, either. It hasn't been the best week. I should have handled things differently. I'm--kind of embarrassed, this was really not like me.

But yes, you're right. I'm usually a lot more optimistic about things. Sometimes to the point of being unrealistic. Realism is a better option.

Private yousethimfree July 8 2010, 10:19:10 UTC

Should we talk now, or should I wait til you've sobered up a little?

Private--Hours later notarrowette July 8 2010, 22:12:26 UTC

I'm sober.

Private yousethimfree July 8 2010, 22:47:05 UTC

Good.

You know I used to be like them, right? I didn't want help, either.

Private notarrowette July 10 2010, 07:22:13 UTC

I know. It wasn't... I was just frustrated, with a lot of things. I didn't handle it well.

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[video] gammapulsed July 8 2010, 13:55:42 UTC

[Figuring this is some time after Bruce finally gets Gabe out of his timeout corner!

Bruce can immediately tell the signs of drunkenness and all the nice things he was going to say kind of go out the window. Instead, he's just gonna frown at you like the older brother who's just caught you smoking in the bathroom.]

Cissie. Where are you.

[video] notarrowette July 8 2010, 22:13:13 UTC

...In my room.

[video] gammapulsed July 8 2010, 22:20:14 UTC

[...Facepalm. That was. Kind of obvious there, Bruce, way to go.]

Well, yeah, I can. Never mind. I uh. Which room would that be?

[video] notarrowette July 8 2010, 22:22:22 UTC

Um, level four, room ten. But I'm okay.

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Private greatlightother July 8 2010, 14:33:43 UTC

Cissie...I'll look after Murphy for you here, alright?

And inmates are not meant to reform easily. You have to push them.

Private notarrowette July 8 2010, 22:18:57 UTC

...All right. Thank you, Sveta.

I know. I just--feel like this is my fault.

Private greatlightother July 8 2010, 22:22:09 UTC

This what?

Private notarrowette July 8 2010, 22:24:54 UTC

Beatty. He's snapped. He tried to burn down the library, and I didn't even know.

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