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I have now moved.
For various reasons, my new username is iothe . -
I'm trying!
Ok, I'm legitimately trying to keep myself above water on this one. Luckily I have a therapy appointment on Wednesday, so that should help. It's not like I think I'm really going over the edge.. I've been through worse. But I've been noticing a change in myself that's scaring me. I'm worried that I might be relapsing kinda hard and I want to make ( Read more... ) -
my future.
I don't know what I wanna do with my life.
That's scary, isn't it? I wanna be ... a nurse, an academic, a teacher, a writer, a therapist... etc.
I got my SAT scores today. 1770. Aren't I a beast?
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what is rest?
The last couple days have been really busy. I had work yesterday which was pretty good. I got to talk to a lot of people I like and the sushi chef made me cucumber rolls with the rice on the OUTSIDE, which is omnom. I had to call in this morning, and apparently I'm working from noon to five tonight, which I'm having a hard time getting psyched ( Read more... ) -
woe.
My birthday is coming up rapidly. For those who don't know, I hate my birthday. Not only is it the day I was going to off myself, but last year was the best birthday ever because of someone, and so now I know this year it will suck. My birthday will never really be mine anymore, anyway. It belongs to depression & him. I should choose another day to ( Read more... ) -
blah de blah blah.
Some kid at my school got suspended last week for having a blog. The idiot decided to use names and advertise it on facebook. FIrst rule of blogging about other people: don't use names. Otherwise you'll hurt people. If someone in my life wants to find my blog, they can... I've given out the link a bit, but it would probably show up on google. But ( Read more... ) -
weekend? what's that?
Seriously. Between taking my SAT yesterday (yes, I made that test my bitch, thanks), and working a nine hour shift... it feels like just another weekday. Here's to hoping that work will go well. Here's to hoping that they'll let me go home early and the shift will be a scheduling mix up (yeah, right ( Read more... ) -
back to black.
Well, I'm back to my old (slutty) ways. I get overwhelmed by the silence, and the constantly being sick, and the always feeling /wrong/ in my own skin. I get tired of it. Z makes me forget about it, if only by being rude and coarse and disgusting. He treats me like an object (kinda) and is all proud of my breasts, which are not that epic. We aren' ( Read more... ) -
It's ... life.
Right now, it's 5:51am. I've been up for hours, I can't sleep ( Read more... ) -
holiday blues and clues.
So I'm really happy that Christmas happened and what not. I was really afraid it would become one of my family's awkward moments. It could have dissolved into something horrible. And while it started off a little rocky (rawr, we didn't start gift opening until 11! D:) it ended great. I got some amazing gifts, everyone was so generous and I'm really ( Read more... )