I figure in the seven minutes I have before I'm rushed off to work, I can update a few things, send a few shout outs and muse a little bit. I've been thinking about what to write for the past week - yeah, I know, I'm a dork - but in the end I haven't felt ... like writing. I don't think this a permanent thing, more of a "I feel busy/sick/stressed/ ( Read more... )

I don't feel like a people person anymore. I don't want to try anymore. I don't want to go through the awkward dance of trying to remain who I am (whoever that is) and not compromise my integrity, but also give into other people's wishes. I don't want to deal with the problems others have with me, and those I might have with them. I am completely ( Read more... )

Today, I walked home in the pouring rain during English class to take my medication. For some odd reason, I felt like this really personified my life. Then I got over it and sang along with some Ingrid Michaelson on the way back. Still. It was quite possibly one of the most pathetic things I've done in a long time.

I'm trying this new theory of honesty with people, and it isn't really working so well. So far I've gotten screwed over by yet another guy (though on a lesser scale), and I've disappointed a friend. I wish people weren't so complicated, I wish people would just understand that I don't feel .. secure right now. I feel like I'm on the edge of ( Read more... )

Whenever I get reasonably upset, I clean ( Read more... )

Tonight there is a community dance being held. Because it was Sadie Hawkins (where the girls ask guys), I didn't go. I don't know who I would ask, and why spend all of the money to go to a dance where I won't enjoy myself? Or where my date (if that even -happened-) wouldn't enjoy himself? No point ( Read more... )

So I was playing World of Warcraft this afternoon and singing along loudly to I Stand Alone, when I realized I have no life. I know it's probably one of those multiple things I tell myself when I feel bad about myself (which is a lot?), but seriously.

1. I was singing along with an obscure animated movie, from the 90s.
2. I was playing World of Warcraft.
3. ( Read more... )

A brief interruption from my frantic studying for two facts about my life ( Read more... )

It's hard when you feel you have no one who understands you and no one who you can talk to. When you feel like there is no one on your side. Everyone is so distant, and they can try and try but they won't really understand where you're coming from. It hurts because you want to reach out and make that connection with another person, but you don't ( Read more... )

I feel like every other week I write in sick. And I feel like every other day I'm skipping work or school because I don't feel good enough to go. Isn't that horrible? I keep getting ill, though, and there isn't anything I can do. I have a fever right now, but I'm sitting downstairs dutifully doing my homework like a good daughter. I can't afford ( Read more... )