I'm trying!
Ok, I'm legitimately trying to keep myself above water on this one. Luckily I have a therapy appointment on Wednesday, so that should help. It's not like I think I'm really going over the edge.. I've been through worse. But I've been noticing a change in myself that's scaring me. I'm worried that I might be relapsing kinda hard and I want to make sure that doesn't happen. I don't want to start at the beginning again, I don't want to let something stupid like a guy defeat me. Not that it would be all his fault. A combination of things.
I haven't been writing as much, and that worries me. Usually I would have something to say. Sometimes I start to write an entry to y'all in my head but I never really finish it. I'm interested in keeping this blog alive, interested in making sure that there is some sort of document of my time since the great breakdown of 2008. As my birthday and the anniversary of my trip to the hospital gets closer, I'm more and more anxious.
I haven't been interested in things I used to be. Anime + stuff like that aren't really that captivating for me. I've always gone through stages like that so, especially after a large binge.
The biggest thing is how irritable I am. I need to get that under control, because I'm snapping at people for things that aren't even worth it, or that would normally bother me. I need to figure out what keeps pissing me off about other people, isolate it and destroy it. Otherwise I'll be alone in the end.
SO, yeah. I will work on that. :)
I haven't been writing as much, and that worries me. Usually I would have something to say. Sometimes I start to write an entry to y'all in my head but I never really finish it. I'm interested in keeping this blog alive, interested in making sure that there is some sort of document of my time since the great breakdown of 2008. As my birthday and the anniversary of my trip to the hospital gets closer, I'm more and more anxious.
I haven't been interested in things I used to be. Anime + stuff like that aren't really that captivating for me. I've always gone through stages like that so, especially after a large binge.
The biggest thing is how irritable I am. I need to get that under control, because I'm snapping at people for things that aren't even worth it, or that would normally bother me. I need to figure out what keeps pissing me off about other people, isolate it and destroy it. Otherwise I'll be alone in the end.
SO, yeah. I will work on that. :)