the twenty-third [fail!private]

[nonesodangerous]

An apology? What's the point in apologizing for saying what you think? Because that's all it was. It just made him rude and tactless. It didn't turn him into a liar. That's what he really thinks.

...he blames me. And he's right. It's my fault. It's all my fault. He nearly died because of me.

I am unfit. I don't know anything. I'm stupid, and weak

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[nonesodangerous]

Typical.

[nonesodangerous]

I'm not blaming anyone for anything. He was telling the truth. For once.

...... :'D?

[not_that_lockon]

Wait, what?

[nonesodangerous]

Come to tell me I've got it all wrong? What the hell would you know?

[not_that_lockon]

Oi, there's no need to be a bitch to me just because you're feeling crappy. And as clueless as I am, maybe I was, but I'm kind of more preoccupied with the bit about my brother almost dying.

[nonesodangerous]

Why do you care? There was... an accident. But he didn't die, so forget about it.

[timey_wimey]

Tieria.

[nonesodangerous]

Save your "brilliant" trash for someone else, Doctor. I'm sick of being lied to.

[timey_wimey]

Oh, for Rassilon's sake, Tieria Erde, stop wallowing in your self-pity, would you? If you think I'd lie about something like that, you're either just as bad as Donna is, or you're not a very good judge of my character, so which is it?

And as a matter of fact, I wasn't about to give you an ego boost, at least not yet. That virus didn't just make him rude and tactless, if that had been all it had been doing I wouldn't have deadlocked an entire section of the TARDIS with him in it.

[nonesodangerous]

I'm a terrible judge of character. That's what I'm supposed to be, and I'm useless at it. He meant it. I know he meant it. He thinks I'm stupid and weak. Why else would he shout at me about Michael and Nena? He's always smiling, but you can see it round the edges sometimes. I might be useless, but I'm not that useless.

[doomedyouth00]

I don't think he thinks that. Not really.

[nonesodangerous]

Why?

[doomedyouth00]

That virus messes with people's minds, you know that.

[nonesodangerous]

It doesn't mean that's not what he really thinks.

[locked]

[debitumnaturae]

You'll give him credit for honesty when he's hurting you, but not when he's sorry for it?

You can beat yourself up without dragging people you love into it, you know.

[locked]

[nonesodangerous]

I believe he's sorry. I just don't believe that he wasn't telling the truth when he said that he blames me. He should blame me. It's my fault. Everything goes wrong, and it's always my fault.

...I don't love anyone.

[locked]

[debitumnaturae]

Okay, fine. You're the machine you were created to be. Moving along.

So it's your fault. Sure. Are you planning to wallow in guilt, or are you going to do better next time?

[locked]

[nonesodangerous]

...what did you say?