Laying in the van on some college campus in socal while all my friends hang out in some bar and I hear a guy walk by and say "she could hardly say her words without puking up booze but man she fucked my brains out." I am not PC or any kind of a super moral human, but this made me sick beyond belief. I understand why human kill each other in ( Read more... )

Finally saw the proof you fucked dean while we were together. Rad. Super fucking rad.

Keep seeking attention. Ill keep seeking a way to end my own pain. I can't even cope anymore. I hope its all you dreamed of. Fly those boys out and kill my memory please.

severus and lilly

You are such a fucking pile of shit and it makes me shit I'm so tied to you. keep playing all these fucking dudes and making sure it fucks with my life. You want to break me? Mission accomplished. Fuck. Finding all of this out while watching 500 days of summer. Fuck me right.

I promised myself I wouldn't be back here. That I would feel different. But I don't. All I want is all we had just a little more honesty. I'm too afraid to lurk so I just look at your picture about 1000 times a day. Sometimes I think I feel you missing me... then I realize I'm only lying to myself. I had an awkward text convo that pretty much ( Read more... )

Asleep at 3am up at 5am... this pattern sucks. I have been laying in bed reading old messages from when things seemed perfect. Seemed. Maybe ignorance was bliss and I should have held on. I know I'm not happy. I know I won't ever be. This scares me, I know I'm numbering my own days. November 4th ill be silent.

I didn't want to see, but the writing seems so in my face. I have to look at him every day and just pretend I don't know. I hope the disrespect is worth the sex. I hope crushing me is as easy as you make it look. You're both fucking snakes.

I'm just writing to myself, because its all I can do to stay sane. I don't know what could be accomplished anymore. It seems like everyone is getting married or engaged and all I feel is jealousy and then I think of how ready I was to be that committed. Its hard to admit to yourself that you would give up anything and anyone for someone, its even ( Read more... )

I lay in bed at night looking at my phone hoping to see that familiar number pop up. It never does. Just give me a sign.