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I promised myself I wouldn't be back here. That I would feel different. But I don't. All I want is all we had just a little more honesty. I'm too afraid to lurk so I just look at your picture about 1000 times a day. Sometimes I think I feel you missing me... then I realize I'm only lying to myself. I had an awkward text convo that pretty much solidified that I know you are hooking up with said person. It hurts. Really bad. I guess I just thought he was my friend. Wrong. Fuck my sleep schedule and my life, I just need this pain to end... and it won't.