Yay for overactive brains and annoying Decepticons. :p

[nightwind69]

I had one of those nights last night where my brain just refused to shut down. I don't know why. I think part of the reason was that it rained through the night. I used to find that sound soothing, when I lived back East, because it was so common. But I've gotten used to living out here, where rain through the night is decidedly not normal. So I

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[ironbite]

You hold grudgeds against dead nuns too? Thank the makers! I was hoping I wasn't the only one!

[nightwind69]

I guess we're an elite club. :)

Then again, many people had bad experiences in Catholic schools with nuns on power trips, so maybe it's a not-so-elite club. Thing is, Sister Amelia was actually a nice nun. I liked her quite a lot, really. Outside of class, she willingly (and competently) answered all of the theological questions that I'd throw at her (The product of my vehemently atheist father, I suppose. :) ) But in class, I'm afraid that I did exasperate her quite a bit... God bless her. :)

[raisedbymoogles]

*waves* Same. If you ever figure out how to forget those things, let me know.

[hunterblues]

Let me know, too. At least you have some good memories of the teacher as well - some grudges don't have any good in the association.

Whirlwind, who's also tired and looking forward to going home in 12 minutes.

[nightwind69]

You'll be the third to know, after me and Pepper. :)

But yeah, it's funny how I can hold a grudge against someone yet still think of them rather fondly. Proof that I'm schizophrenic? You decide... :)

[nightwind69]

I figure an I-beam upside the head oughta get the job done... :)

No, seriously, if I figure it out, you'll be the first to know. Well, second to know. After me and all.

And...I need to go to bed. I'm being entirely too goofy. It's all Ironbite's fault.

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[silverrose14]

Eh, you're not the only one holding grudges against people when it's way past time to let them go. I guess it just works itself out when it's time. One thing about my particular grudge is I have more of a backbone now than I did before the grudge. Before it was fairly easy to run me over. It's not like that now. I honestly don't know if that's a good thing or not. :P

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[nightwind69]

Grudges, I guess, are another of those good ol' human nature things. Unfortunately, it's another of those things that only harm the person holding the grudge. I know this, yet they're still hard to get rid of. Guess I like 'em too much or something...

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[silverrose14]

Grudges are weird things. I've pondered them a little bit over the last year or so. I wonder if perhaps they are so hard to let go of because they function somewhat as a defense mechanism. Like I said about mine, I sure as heck am not going to be duped by the same people a second time. Grudges seem to make sure that not only the memories remain fresh, but also the feelings associated with it. That seems to be a lot of their power over a person.

I agree they are unhealthy, but yeah, I don't know how to get rid of them either.

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[nightwind69]

I suppose they are the result of particularly negative learning experiences, yes. But on the other hand, sometimes they make us overly-sensitive, in the sense that we become so attuned to vibes like those we got from the person against whom we're holding a grudge that we start seeing similar vibes in everyone, even if they're not really there. This, I think, is how paranoid distrust of everyone begins. I really don't want to be like that, personally.

And I think that, in the end, the only way to really get rid of grudges is just to consciously let them go. True, some will be much easier than others to let go, depending on the severity of the hurt inflicted. Me, I'm going to start with the one against the dead nun. If I can't do that, then I'm really a case... :)

[horsetechie]

*snrk* And after seeing this one Lunesta commercial talk about normal things like work and family that keep people up, I had to wonder what that was like.

Cause yeah, it's usually the silly things, like grudges and head characters that bugger the slag outta me in the middle of the night too! Toward the end of my pregnancy, guess what made me loose the most sleep? Skywarp. Yes. Him, and Sunstorm, and TC... Fragging. Seekers. But all this about babies finally made him vacant the premises. Thus, I had decided he's gone over to pester you and Devi now. ;D

[nightwind69]

Work and family? HAH! It's them-there giant robots that'll getcha. :) FEEEEEAAAAR the Giant Robots! FEEEEEEAAAAAAAR!

*ahem* Yeah, I'm way too tired-goofy to be online right now. Sorry. :)

...So you're saying that thinking about babies will make Skywarp go away? I'll have to remember that... But then, thinking about babies is likely to draw in Prowl like a moth to a flame, so that's probably not a good idea, either...

[horsetechie]

*snicker* ;D

Not necessarily just thinking about babies... more like living out the worst points of them. Like labor pains, delivery, feeding every 1-2 hours 24/7, putting up with bouts of wailing... and telling him and other annoyed headchars that 'no, there isn't an off button!' ;p

But Sunstorm (and Vertigo) is/are happy to have free reign of my thoughts again. *sigh*

[nightwind69]

True. When I had my baby, the whole process kind of squelched the voices for a while. But honestly, I don't think I want to go through all of that just to make Skywarp go away. ;) Not when Devi's cookies work so effectively, anyway...

[ravenclaw_devi]

Hey, I empathise. Please, don't hate yourself over it; that wouldn't help anyone either. Letting go takes time. (I think people don't often realise what a long memory children have...)

And what I was thinking of was good stuff that, regrettably, I likely will not remember when I do need it.

This is why you (general 'you', not just you) should always have a notebook and pen next to your bed. ;)

Hey, [info]ravenclaw_devi, you need to write some goop to wake me up/keep me awake. ;)

I was about to!

Okay, Skywarp, no more hassling Nightwind! C'mon back in my headspace; I've got cookies.

[nightwind69]

Kids do tend to remember the things that you'd wish they'd forget. Perverse, they are. Me in particular, apparently. And I don't hate myself, really. I've just lately been thinking about the baggage that I'm carrying around that I don't really need. I'd like to jettison what I can. I'd say that I can safely toss grudges held against dead nuns. :) I mean, what's the point of that?

This is why you (general 'you', not just you) should always have a notebook and pen next to your bed. ;)

I used to do that. Used to annoy the heck out of my husband when I'd sit bolt-upright in bed, turn on a nice, bright light, and start scribbling like mad... (Served it right, it did.) I imagine it'd similarly annoy The Mook, since we inhabit the same bedroom, and I really don't want to annoy her like that.

I was about to!

And you did! And I'm still awake, even though it's after 10PM here. *tosses cookies*

Okay, Skywarp, no more hassling Nightwind! C'mon back in my headspace; I've got cookies.Unfortunately, Skywarp responds better to cheesecake... No

[ravenclaw_devi]

*catches cookies* Thank you!

[horsetechie]

I used to do that. Used to annoy the heck out of my husband when I'd sit bolt-upright in bed, turn on a nice, bright light, and start scribbling like mad...

Yah... I have a similiar dilemma like that. Annoys me too when people say "just keep a paper and pen by your bed to write it down", since I am not a single person in my own bedroom anymore.

I could just see hubby waking up and wondering "Whatcha doing?" and then try to read over my shoulder to see what... and frankly, there are some things I rather not have to explain to him. ^^

So if it's a really good bit of inspiration for an RP or fic, I just mill over it a few times to make sure I don't forget it.