I'm supposed to be happy....who says ( Read more... )

Still unemployed, still 'ALONE' most the time, still supposed to hop, skip and jump when someone decides at 8:30 pm that he wants to go to the store....and then throws a hissy fit when you ask "Is it for Cigarettes or something else?" because if it is only for cigs, you have a pack but of course, he doesn't wait to find out, he simply stomps off... ( Read more... )

Keeping my fingers crossed about three interviews next week, one is part time, two are full time, one could be midnights and weekends with two days off during the week....but I'll take it as "HE" wouldn't be alone anytime....shame you have to spend your older years working to babysit a parent that doesn't appreciate ANYTHING for more than a moment ( Read more... )

It's freezing out. Thank GOD we didn't get the amount of snow that the weather service was claiming we'd get..but the freezing temperatures are sure to piss Dad off. He actually mentioned going to the store yesterday or the day before...see God, the days are blending one into the other...and I'm feeling useless as anything. I don't know what the ' ( Read more... )

Explain why one child from a family of two children, two adults becomes the ONLY one that has the ability to juggle a house, pets, cleaning, shopping (granted I'm actually jobless still) and the care of my Father...my sister has a full time job so I'm cutting some slack but not much ( Read more... )

Still not completely paid from Rene...he got his dogs watched, got his pups birthed....and I'm still waiting on my balance, he has till Sunday before I start to bug him ( Read more... )

Dad apologized for his behavior...to both me and Dee. I asked him tonight if he's 'ready'? and my heart cracked when he said "Yeah, I think I am ( Read more... )

Earlier in the week after talking with Sandi, we decided it was time to get our butts back to the barn to see our horses, groom them and get winter blankets on them....it was a discussion held in front of Dee. Tonight she decides we can fit in a visit to Lake Geneva and for pizza. She leaves work early and knows that normally Sandi doesn't get ( Read more... )

It's 7:40 pm, just woke from a nap...the day sucked ( Read more... )

I thought I did well on the interview. I know I passed the tests I took, the people seemed to think things looked favorable....so I sat like an idiot with my phone today....waiting, hoping....sent an email to them thanking them for the opportunity to interview and suddenly 'pop' there's a message thanks but no thanks. I'm at the end of my rope dear ( Read more... )