What have I been doing with my life as a college graduate ( Read more... )

Senior recital in a couple weeks. I'm doing okay; a lot better than I thought I would, in fact. I was expecting panic attacks, insomnia by now. It was when this girl that I know told me that she respected me because I just DO whatever the fuck I want, without caring what anybody thinks (which isn't totally true. Everyone cares what everyone thinks ( Read more... )

let it be known that I'm awake at 4:30 AM because I awoke with my first mild panic attack for my senior recital on April 27th. Because I care too much what people think of me, yes, but especially since I've spent four years at music school, I feel like there better be something I've got to prove ( Read more... )

AND IT'S FUNNY that I should mention duncan, because on sunday we caught up and got dinner. I saw him on Halloween, and I was just so overwhelmed and happy to see him that I thought "Fuck the past; I think we can be friends!" He had just gotten back from tour on sunday, and I come to find out that Monica broke up with him last week ( Read more... )

now that my jury is over, I feel unmotivated. Tired. Doesn't help that I stay up these nights with Zach, because all you want to do with a new lover is to kiss them, over and over, each one more meaningful than the one before ( Read more... )

"In his or her relations with others the Leo type is open, sincere, genuine and trusting. Outgoing, spontaneously warm hearted and plain spoken, though never lacking in kindliness, Leos are more disillusioned than the average if let down by those they trust. They are not good judges of character and are inclined to favoritism and an exaggerated ( Read more... )

akron/family - shoes

logan is coming logan is coming logan is coming! for my birthday. let the games begin.

"and you laugh so hard
it hurts your sides in pain
as you approached the sun
it rains on everyone"

yes. I deleted facebook.
and I don't plan on getting it back for a while.

The things I want to focus on are practicing, spending some alone time, reading.
(You know, I was having a really good time being single, and accomplishing this. But he had to go and make it hard for me once more.)

The past has been nagging at me lately ( Read more... )

You were right about the stars ( Read more... )