i think i really do need to go to a psychologist ( Read more... )

blah, just blah.

i haven't been updating this as much as i would like to... i guess i'm sort of out of the writing mood, but that's okay ( Read more... )

sometimes i get the distinct feeling that my friends just don't care about what i think, or what i want to do.
it doesn't matter though, it won't, and it never will.
i've been sad lately; it went away for a while but now it's back ( Read more... )

i've got a new year's resolution for once in my life. i hope it will be one that i can keep. i saw a book at borders today that looked like it sucked but it gave me a good idea: write your life (the book was a roadtrip) out in music. since music is my life anyway, here goes:
010106: stroke of midnight: the ( Read more... )

he's not paying attention as you play with his hair and watch the movie. you hope he notices every subtle movement that shows just how much you love him. you hold him, touch him tenderly, all the things that people in love do. you hope he can feel your love radiate through your body and out your fingertips as they catch sparks on his skin. you hope ( Read more... )

the phone rings. at least you think it does. it's just a commercial but you're in love and confused. why won't he call you? why don't you call him? but then you remember you've been calling all day and only a voicemail greets you each time. you call him once more riding on your last hopes that he cares. that he'll pick up the phone and say "i love ( Read more... )

rant rant rant ( Read more... )

brittany is back from italy so i hung out with her today. it was fun. she got drunk at lunch and then we bought birthday presents. we went back to her house and she gave me my italian gifts-- a glass turquiose ring some like famous italian glass whose name i forget, and a chocolate brown and turquiose glass vase by the same people. they're ( Read more... )

uh apparently i'm not authorized to upload pictures or i would have pictures from eisley at the virgin megastore and also from billy corgan's show and when i met him. i'll figure it out soon enough though, my dearies.