Ive been totally screwing up at the club lately. Im not so secure of my job now. Luckily ive alreay started looking for new work. I was talking to collette and she brought up that i should be a dancer. She says im perfect for it and she has great hook-ups. She says when she was my age she would bring in $500 a night. Thats more then 2 weeks pay for ( Read more... )

well I finally broke up with chris today, one month short of a year. I cant believe it lasted this long. It was a horrible relationship and the only reason I let it last this long is b/c i fell in love ( Read more... )

I had a fab time at the beach. it ended up being only me and mike but, we still had a lot of fun. I learned a lot about fishing on the trip and caught a good number of fish. I even caught a couple of sharks. My favorite was the blowfish i caught, i named him spike and then i let him go. mike and I got along extremlly well considering we were ( Read more... )

i cant believe i havent written in this thing in so long. ok quick update ( Read more... )

last night i unwillingly went on a date with eddie. I have to continue this until i get my freaking id. he took me to chops and i downed a class of wine which eased my annoence level. Luckily the evening ended ealry and i called matt and headed over to his house. A little after i arrived we began making out again, this time a little heavier. We ( Read more... )

i went in to lisa's today to talk about my drinking problem and the conversation took an odd turn to my moms drinking problem. I told her how my mom drinks straight vodka every night and while she is cooking dinner she has a glass or 2 of wine. i hadnt really noticed it till latley when i used to come home late and tell her about my night and then ( Read more... )

My session with Lisa today was probably the best session yet. I finally really opened up. I admited to her how vunerable i am and how afraid i am of being rejected. I told her how I was feeling about Pete. She suggested I be up front with him as soon as possible and definatly before we have our "hotel night" I really wish pete would have called ( Read more... )

it seems as though all my guys are getting in or out of a marriage and have a baby with this women. I find myself quite jealous. Especially when Pete talks about jessica. I can hear in his voice that he loves her. I hate to think of them together. I hate that she still spends the night over at his house. I hated the sound of him telling me that ( Read more... )

mood] bored ( Read more... )

Its coming to the end of my first week of college. Im taking history and english. I actually like my professors and the people in my class. I have a great schedule and i think it will be a fun 6 weeks(5 now ( Read more... )