Okay, seriously.  The Army needs to get my husband out of Iraq and here already.  He's sitting at an air base, waiting for plane.  Ah.  Stress.

On another note, I have all day to pack and be alone in the house.  Not good.  I've been so good lately.  Haven't b/ped in almost three weeks.  Losing.  Everything.  But sometimes it seems like its too much ( Read more... )

 Rob will be here on Friday!!!  Ah!  I was nervous but now I'm just seriously excited.  I don't think people realize how hard this war and deployments are on spouses/family/friends.  I think its safe to say that this has been one of the hardest six months of my life.  He's here for 18 days...and then gone for 9 more months.  I'll be damned if I let ( Read more... )

 I'm so freaking tired.  I've slept about 11 hours in the past 72.  Rob needs to hurry up and get here so I can curl up with him and hopefully we can both catch up on some much needed zzzzzz's.  I have no clue where he's at right now either.  I know they move them a few times before they actually leave the continent and fly here from somewhere in ( Read more... )

 Writing in this in the morning makes it so much easier to stick to my goals for the day.  I don't know what I'm going to do for the 18 days that Rob's here and I can't get on here.

Sometimes I just want all of this to stop.  I want to be able to sit down and enjoy a meal with my family without obsessing over how many calories is in it and ( Read more... )

 I'm having a crap morning but I think I'm going to make it.  I started taking my Zoloft again yesterday and I definitely remembered correctly--I couldn't sleep worth anything!  I took some Tylenol PM to counteract the crazy unsleepiness it always gives me, but I still woke up at one and couldn't go back to sleep until 5.  Ugh.  However, my husband ( Read more... )

I have to go eat at Outback tonight.  FUCK!  I know its a place I'll definitely have to eat when Rob's home and its probably a good idea that I go there and find something I can eat...  but ugh.  My ex-fiance worked there and I know how they cook their food.  Badbadbadbad.  Hopefully no one will be at home this afternoon and I can exercise a lot ( Read more... )

Well I sucessfully quit my job yesterday morning.  I was feeling awesome when I went to my interview at the bank in the afternoon.  They called me after I had left and asked me if I could come back and meet the bank president....and they hired me!!  I'll be getting paid more, working less hours, and having way less headaches.

I hate how I feel nasty ( Read more... )

 I've been doing so well lately and I'm really excited about it!  I wish I had been able to cut something out yesterday because I was really busy and totally could've, but my Mom was hounding me to eat at least what I normally eat.  I think I managed 700 cals, but I burnt 750 in exercise AND I worked all day.  I'm getting ready to start my period ( Read more... )

Well, I made myself go home and exercise for half an hour last night.  I had a lot of energy, suprisingly enough.  Today I'm dragging though.  I'm so anxious about everything and its driving me nuts.

Today is:

Breakfast: 1 egg, 3 egg whites, + salsa (150 cal)

Work til 1ish

Exercise for 2 hours

More work til about 8:00 pm

Dinner: 1/2 Chicken breast, ( Read more... )

My plan was to eat 1 (whole) egg + 3 egg whites with salsa (about 150 cals) for breakfast.  Which I did successfully.

Then work from 7:30-7...which I had no choice in doing.

Then I was going to go home and exercise for an hour, but I'm so freaking tired.  I haven't been sleeping well becasue I'm so anxious about my hubby coming home and ughhh.  I ( Read more... )