im kinda in a mood right now. somethign feels weird and i cant get a hold of robert. seems like something is going on with him. i have a feeling he is sleeping. his idle message says its raining so im guessing he went back to bed. the doctor hasnt called me back and i havnt taken my meds today. im waiting til 4 but i think ill call them when im ( Read more... )

so i was thinking. so this medication is keeping me up at night. like i havnt slept in 3 days now. and i was complaining before, that this was actually helping me. (its anti-anxiety shit) but honestly, im so tired that i feel the same way i did before i was put on this shit. i jsut dont feel like doing anything and i really need to and i dont get ( Read more... )

so whats up? im kinda tired kinda not. im in the mood to watch a movie, lay my head on Roberts lap and fall asleep watching it. alas, that cant happen so ill just write this instead. a lot of shit has happened lately. i got called into work at 7am yesterday. which was fine but i had a doctors appointment so i got to go the doctor and get payed for ( Read more... )

blinkwonateytoo: I'm gonna ask you one more time in a different way......how do you know, no one will understand unless you explain it to them ( Read more... )

so seriously. today is just one more kick in the ass after another. first all, lets just remember im fucking sick. so im not happy. lastnight i stayed up late with Robert because we had some things that needed to be talked about. in the end he made me smile so its golden. then this morning, i get a call at fucking 7am because i apparently forgot to ( Read more... )

if anyone from high school reads this and wants to know who im talking about, email me or message me or something and ill let you know

this entry is going to make me look like a total bitch but i dont care, the people who i am writing about wont read it and im sick and i dont care. haha ( Read more... )

Robert called me lastnight i dont even know when, it was late and i was sleeping. i was pissed at first because i had no idea what the fuck he was saying. but finally i figured out that he was saying he was on a raft in the pacific ocean with lions and that he was going to beat Christopher Columbus to the americas and that he was a fuck and that ( Read more... )

im kinda bored. all lastnight i was looking at shit at st cloud state. i think im going to change my major it Geography. i think i would be able to find better jobs and i think i would enjoy it alot more. id have to get a masters eventually though. which is fine. i can do that where and whenever though.

well i have 2 and a half months to go. which ( Read more... )

as i would tell the gas guy that comes to my work, i am alone with my ( Read more... )