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so whats up? im kinda tired kinda not. im in the mood to watch a movie, lay my head on Roberts lap and fall asleep watching it. alas, that cant happen so ill just write this instead. a lot of shit has happened lately. i got called into work at 7am yesterday. which was fine but i had a doctors appointment so i got to go the doctor and get payed for it.. i forgot to punch out.. oops! hahah. anyway, so hope got fired for not showing up. which is awesome i wanted her gone a long time ago. Anyway so i went to the Doctor yesterday because i was having chest pains and they said it had nothing to do with my heart, i have a catalage issue in my rib cage that gets inflamed and hurts like youre having a heart attack. so all i can do for that is take ibprofen. which seems to help a bit. i took somelastnight because when i was at the doctor she pushed on my ribs and stuff so they had ached all day. also we got to talking about how insane ive been lately so we have determined that i have general and social anxiety. eh if you know me its kinda a given. i think i just needed someone (a doctor) tell me i needed something. So they put me onthis medication and i can already tell somethings. im not sure if its working or if im just not used to it. she gave me 2 months worths of samples so im going to take them all and see how it goes. it seemed today at work that i was getting irritated a lot but i was handling it a little better. i was able to slow down and try to make sence of why i was getting aggitated. so maybe it is helping. it seems like its helping with not staying in a bad mood when something doesnt go the way i want. its a lot easier to get over things. so i think thats an awesome thing.

so i am kinda hopeing this stuff will work out for me. if not im going to try other things. i know ive been driving Robert insane and i hate that. i love him so much and i dont want to do that to him. hes so awesome. hes got a few songs up on soundclick.com now which is really awesome.

www.soundclick.com/bands/5/robertclarkmusic.htm

go there and listen to his stuff. its a little rough because hes recording it himself and these are just rough drafts and he had some mic problems. but give him feedback on his messageboard. he loves hearing what people have to say.