Soo ( Read more... )

This isnt good.

Not at all.

Im already tripping over... him...

Im so gone..

This is scary.

Im scared...

What if...

Well, I cant protect myself from anything anymore..

He completely tore down my fortress.

The thing protecting me from the world. And HIM!!

Somebody.

Anybody...

Im not looking for attention. I just really need someone right now. =(

I have never felt this way before.

And it hurts.

Bad.

I know I never should have...

Because now....

I'll never move on...

I am so confused...

Please, ***, stop playing with my emotions, my heart, and my mind.

Im a fagile person.

I break easily.

Handle ( Read more... )

"Never look back," we said ( Read more... )

I really dont wanna wake up. Im waiting for myself to come back around... Waiting for myself to wake up from this mess, this nightmare! I just wanna talk to him, to see if it really is over... So I can move on.. Or attempt to.. My heart is so incredibly broken... into a million pieces... All over the place.. I wanna know what I did wrong. I cant ( Read more... )

This is exactly how I feel ( Read more... )

I have never felt so much pain. And I cant stop thinking about what I did ( Read more... )

Mall was pretty fun.... cold, but fuun!! We walked to Taco Bell, and then to Target! That was fuun!! NOw, Im bored, I wanna see Ben so bad, but I cant. For some odd reason, I feel I should sit on my ass cause everytime I leave, he comes around... Wow, why does this have to suuuuck!? Ugh! I guess his ex and her friends went over to his house, while ( Read more... )

OKay, so... Yeah.... A lot has happened.... Well, Ben and I are together... he duped his GF! Damn I feel bad... Oh well. It was worth it... And man those damn "pit stops!" Ha ha! Niiiice, Ben <3! Well, Monday was kinda a sucky day.... until Ben asked me out on my front porch... After Katie slapped him, that was grrreeeeaaaat!! Ha ha. And then we ( Read more... )

I didnt know It could hurt this bad to think for just 1 second that it was all just a one night stand- that the kiss meant nothing, the holding hands meant nothing, that everything we did meant nothing. Maybe he doesnt want Jacob and Jeremy to find out... But I feel used. Maybe it's my insecurities. Maybe not. I dont know. I still feel horrible, ( Read more... )