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Mall was pretty fun.... cold, but fuun!! We walked to Taco Bell, and then to Target! That was fuun!! NOw, Im bored, I wanna see Ben so bad, but I cant. For some odd reason, I feel I should sit on my ass cause everytime I leave, he comes around... Wow, why does this have to suuuuck!? Ugh! I guess his ex and her friends went over to his house, while he was in his boxers, ya know it's hard to trust someone who cheated on his ex, with you. What makes you think he wont do that to you? And why is my self esteem level so low? Like I never know if somone really likes me or is just going out with me for the hell of it. I jusyt dont know... I like him sooooooooooo much and Im not sure if he feels the same, even though he acts like he does. And I dont need or want people to worry about me, Im a strong girl. He's not going to use me as a sex toy. Come on! If he does, yeah, I'll be hurt, but Im not gonna make my world revolve around it. I'll move on, eventually. But words cant describbe how strong my feelings are. It hurts! And I dont know why I feel so bad...