If I had just one wish...
I really dont wanna wake up. Im waiting for myself to come back around... Waiting for myself to wake up from this mess, this nightmare! I just wanna talk to him, to see if it really is over... So I can move on.. Or attempt to.. My heart is so incredibly broken... into a million pieces... All over the place.. I wanna know what I did wrong. I cant help the way I feel at this point, Im ready to kill him and her. Even though I got what I deserved.. And I hate breathing cause it proves that I can live with out him, but Im not actually me anymore.. She's everywhere I wanna be.. Isn't it messed up how Im dying to be her? After all he did... Im still missing him to death.. What I'd do for just one more day with him... I dont wanna cry anymore... But the tears keep falling... I wanna be okay... I wanna be me again... I wanna be happy, but I was only happy with him. Now Im just an empty page... I cant remember anything happy.. only him.. WHY? what is going on? I have no control, what is happening? I want my life back, along with everything else that walked away from me...