hey just wanted to stop by and say i'm alive, not much has been going on lately, still stuck at home being bored outta my mind, i am talking to a new guy tho. hopefully this goes better then the last relationship i had.

a lot has changed i'm no longer what that arshole, on August 25th i sang happy birthday to my best guy friend then three hours later we(my family and i) found my grandmother on the floor. it kinda hit me hard cause she was the only one in my family i could connect with. yesterday we had a birthday party for my younger brother and my cousin Kelly ( Read more... )

things have been crazy lately from being hospitalized to finding out i could be bipolar. but i want you all to know i'm feeling better now and soon i'll have my beloved up here with me.

i know its been a while, alot has been going on, i'm dating someone now really excited that i've found someone who makes me feel loved ^^ i've been playing an online game since the last week of may 08 so that has been keeping me accupied sorry if i havent' talked to ne of you in a while i'm not trying to avoid you i just get in these phases where i ( Read more... )

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to all that miss me i'm still alive and well

hello, rachel's loved ones. this is rachel speaking beyond the grave. if u don't know yet i have a new yahoo id. i'll explain everything now. Last friday evening, i finally went through with it. suicide that is. i'm sorry to tell you this i just love all of u so much, i couldn't let you all see me like this. so i took my own life thinking that i ( Read more... )

if you need to get ahold of me contact me though chat i have msn, and yahoo...so if you want i can give you my addy and you can talk to me that way...if you miss me that much

i'm going to get help soon i promise i'm going to call around and find a shrink that can help me...there is a lot more problems with me then most people realize...but i'm finally getting over some of them i'm talking to mom more and telling her how i feel but she is really concerned i have yet to tell her about my many attempts of suicide. i've ( Read more... )

what the fuck is wrong with me? i dont understand why everyone is pissy towards me lately if i said something to piss you off then tell me don't get mad at me cause if you know me at all you know i didnt mean to do what ever i did. And you also know that if you dont tell me what i did wrong i will go on for days tearing my self to pieces trying to ( Read more... )