hi hi
i know its been a while, alot has been going on, i'm dating someone now really excited that i've found someone who makes me feel loved ^^ i've been playing an online game since the last week of may 08 so that has been keeping me accupied sorry if i havent' talked to ne of you in a while i'm not trying to avoid you i just get in these phases where i just don't want to do much i'm still unemployeed filling out for disablity for this damn diesease i have so hopefully that will come threw, i hate how ppl pity me since i don't have a job but it isnt' all that bad i met mark while i've been outta work and he seems to love me for who i am mom is a little aggrivated at me tho cause these days my brain just turns to mush whenever i talk to mark and i get in this daze and it takes a while for me to come outta it. he really does make me happy and that's all that counts right? i'm being judged daily for my relationship and i'm sick of it, dont' u think i get it enough from my family y can't u be happy that i'm happy D? i don't understand you. u keep saying you want me to be happy then u sit and critazise everything i do. Stop it already ok? i c how it is now u can just drop me for two months then think everything will still be where u left it? well i'm sorry i'm not i use to think u were better then "him" but ur not how could i ever have thought u were better then him? you actually liked it when i was around but now that i'm with mark u just avoid me constantly what the hell is wrong with you? i'm still who i was before i haven't changed i've only been happier and i think that is pissing you off i'm not the one who runs to you no more with every little problem i've become an adult and you need to realize and u should have realized from teh start that i wouldn't need you all my life. but HOW DARE YOU JUST NOT TALK TO ME NE MORE I STILL LOVE YOU Y DO U HAVE TO JUST AVOID ME AND ABANDOM ME LIKE THIS? i want you in my life plz stop avoiding me i will always need you i just need to be able to make mistakes