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fic: Ritual (60): Connection

Nov 26, 2009 14:00

Here; have a Thanksgiving treat!

Title: Ritual (60): Connection
Pairing, other characters: Peter/"Nathan", Emma
Rating: NC-17
Genre: Dark Romance/Angst
Spoilers: through episode 4.10 "Brother's Keeper"
Word count: around 7300 words
Warnings: see pairing and rating; mild bloodshed
Summary: A lost Nathan turns to the only thing in the world that he ( Read more... )

petrellicest, fic, angst, smut, nc-17, nathan, emma, peter, ritual

Comments 28

anansie_s November 27 2009, 06:29:59 UTC

So, I decided with a lot of trepidation to break my rule to not read any Vol.5 fic for a while (too depressing), and let myself read this one. I don't regret it.

Nathan's terrible fear, his intuition about the gravity of what has happened to him, and his overwhelming need for Peter here is so honest and unfiltered; it feels right. I liked the sweetness with which they finally treated each other when they understood, in the second part. As well as the insights into Peter's traumatised state of mind right after the burning, and now. (By the way, smelling like snow? So strangely wonderful, that detail). The line about poisoned bloodlines, the terrible irony of Nathan thinking Angela arranged the hit -- intense stuff. Really affecting. But this?:

"No," Nathan said faintly. "No more."

Fine, you win. Absolutely entirely heartbreaking, right there. Still, I'm glad I read this.

Good luck with your new projects! And thank you for all the lovely writing you put here so far.

mystery_sock November 27 2009, 07:58:20 UTC

Oh, hey, I'm glad you broke your fast with me!

Nathan's terrible fear, his intuition about the gravity of what has happened to him, and his overwhelming need for Peter here is so honest and unfiltered; it feels right
And he literally does need Peter, at least at that moment, to BE Nathan. He doesn't understand it consciously, but being with Peter - and being sexual with him, most importantly - really does remind him who he fundamentally is.

the terrible irony of Nathan thinking Angela arranged the hitI'm glad that came through; I don't know if we've seen the last of Millie, and whether or not Angela knew about the hit (I'm guessing not; and if not, Millie is FUCKED), but his level of trust with Angela is so damaged that he will always think of her first whenever anyone threatens his life. I hope to God they didn't bring up a storyline as important as Millie and Dead Kelly and Angela's coverup and have to drop it (I don't see it as them forgetting about it; but they edit this show to the bone these days. Perhaps I am giving the ( ... )

coldryuuza November 27 2009, 08:41:33 UTC

whoa! I can tell which the parts are Nathan, Sylar, and Gabriel Gray and when they start to blend in with each other O_o freaky!

huh. I didn't see it that way, Nathan having a psychotic break, Peter is such a nurse at heart. a part of me is happy that they just got each other at the end, but then another part of is thinking 'omg, lies! this does not end well for anyone but Sylar D:'

thanks for writing such great fics as these!

mystery_sock November 27 2009, 19:00:38 UTC

Poor Peter doesn't really have anything to compare it to besides psychosis - Nathan speaking in different voices, panicked because he keeps losing his self-hood, etc. That's REALLY what it looks like. The truth is much darker, of course.

You're welcome, and it's my pleasure! Thanks for reading!

eternal_moonie November 27 2009, 09:14:25 UTC

Totally AWESOME heroes smut! Well done!

mystery_sock November 27 2009, 19:00:55 UTC

Thank you! I appreciate it!

ialwayswill November 27 2009, 13:22:37 UTC

AMAZING as always. You're my favorite. :)

This will be the last Ritual for a while...

D:

Well as long as this is not the END of Ritual, I'm good. :D
I think I'll just follow the guide and re-read this whole thing. That should keep me occupied for a while.

mystery_sock November 27 2009, 19:02:28 UTC

Awwww!

And no, it isn't the end. I'm just taking the pressure off myself; I'm putting it on the back burner, as it were. But if, like with the last couple of episodes, a fic just demands to be written, I will totally do it. And there's still all that cute stuff in the past that I could write about!

Thanks for reading and commenting. It means a lot.

ialwayswill November 28 2009, 10:31:48 UTC

And there's still all that cute stuff in the past that I could write about!

And that is the stuff I love the most...teenage!Peter/Nathan is my ~thing~ :x
I prefer pre-series Peter/Nathan fic. Powers just...complicate things. I wish the show would have more flashback episodes. I want to know more about their past.

xanatosdecrion November 27 2009, 15:59:41 UTC

Wow. Just wow ( ... )

mystery_sock November 27 2009, 19:20:50 UTC

You're fabulous, you know that? :)

So much of this was so exhaustive emotionally for the characters and by default for 'me', I can only imagine how you must've felt writing.
Yeah, it was hard, but not as hard as writing "Because I Want To", when the wounds were fresh - and I also wasn't quite as grounded with the character of Sylar (and Gabriel) in Nathan. There's a lot more Nathan in this (well, in the second part, anyway, but even in the first part, really; Nathan is more than capable of that kind of brutality and harshness). But more than anything, I know that, at this point, Peter can take it.

And with this if Nate can 'lose it', then why not Peter, too? Why not break with reality too, young man?Because he really just can't. It's not in his nature. Peter will not ever lose his shit, not in any permanent way. It's just not in his character. Nathan is a lot more fragile, because so much of his life has been based on objects and symbols and what other people think about him; the only real, true thing inside him, at least that he ( ... )