fic: Ritual (60): Connection

[mystery_sock]

Here; have a Thanksgiving treat!

Title: Ritual (60): Connection
Pairing, other characters: Peter/"Nathan", Emma
Rating: NC-17
Genre: Dark Romance/Angst
Spoilers: through episode 4.10 "Brother's Keeper"
Word count: around 7300 words
Warnings: see pairing and rating; mild bloodshed
Summary: A lost Nathan turns to the only thing in the world that he

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[xanatosdecrion]

Which brings me to what I think are glimpses of Sylar:

-the 'hearing' of Peter's thoughts w/o Peter realizing
-the obvious rough sex and the ball play in the other scene; it was as if he'd never sucked balls before...like he did it with a kind of curiosity and wonder at Pete's reaction? Or am I taking it too far?
-the panic-attack; Peter leaving. that seems like Sylar to me. just because he's not used to that kind of companionship/love
-the scene in the latter bit where Nathan returns and is confused but knows he should return to Peter because he's on the level when he's near his brother...that's Sylar it seems because Nathan would never feel too regretful about getting some pussy, especially tatted-out Carnie pussy. LOL. I'm being crude again.
-even the breakdown, him losing it is Nathan yes, but dare I say it's Sylar, a confused Sylar more than anything. *head to desk* why am I deconstructing for Sylar? Screw him! I'll shaddup now.

Peter's bed squeaked across the floor. Nathan actually laughed, and Peter nearly cried then; he had

[mystery_sock]

Allow me:
Which brings me to what I think are glimpses of Sylar:
-the 'hearing' of Peter's thoughts w/o Peter realizing
Yep.

-the obvious rough sex and the ball play in the other scene; it was as if he'd never sucked balls before...like he did it with a kind of curiosity and wonder at Pete's reaction?
Yep, kind of. The rough sex, definitely, but also a bit of Nathan acting out his anger in the only way he can.

-the panic-attack; Peter leaving. that seems like Sylar to me. just because he's not used to that kind of companionship/love
Actually, no - that's all Nathan.

-the scene in the latter bit where Nathan returns and is confused but knows he should return to Peter because he's on the level when he's near his brother...that's Sylar it seems because Nathan would never feel too regretful about getting some pussy, especially tatted-out Carnie pussy.LOL - and no, that's all Nathan, too; Nathan doesn't have any regrets or guilt, only he's annoyed because he can't remember it - he's assuming that he was fucked up at the time. Which he

[xanatosdecrion]

Ooh thanks so much for the clarification LOL I was wrong about Sy!Nate!Sy!Nathaniel LOL. Love this bit about Angela; you're so right and Sylar is so right. Thank you so much again for this fic ;)

[anths_girl]

Wow - well,this was just SO worth the wait,it 'ain't even funny.HOLY.FAK.HOT and SAD and BRILLIANT and...I'm at a loss for words,as usual.

Thank you for blessing us with another installment of epic Ritual-ness!

[mystery_sock]

You're welcome - and I'm glad you think so! These last few months have been pretty frustrating for me; it's not good for me to not be writing. Though I did do some work on the original stuff - MAN it takes so long to do! I wrote THIS story in two days, total, from outline to "final" draft. That's what I'm used to; not a goddamn chapter a MONTH. :( I'll get into the swing of things eventually, I'm sure.

[ginevra_alessa]

When the touch of Nathan's cock came, it was like balm on a burn; a soft kiss on a fevered forehead.

I love this!

[mystery_sock]

Thanks! <3

[lyxie]

Beautiful. Simply beautiful. With added bonus of great smut.

I'll admit that I smiled when Peter opened the door in Shadowboxing and Nathan was there. Nathan flew into his arms and gripped Peter like he would fall apart if he let go. When he felt like something terrible had happened his immediate instinct was to go to Peter. And that made me insanely happy even though it wasn't really Nathan.

I also loved to imagine what happened after the hug and I'm so happy you decided to make that into a Ritual story.

Make it better, Peter. Make it all better.

This is sad and not sad (for lack of a better term) at the same time. On the one hand, it's lovely to see that Nathan trusts Peter enough to break down in front of him. He trusts him enough to go to him for help and trusts that Peter will make it all better. On the other, we know Peter can't fix it...no matter how hard he tries.

Break meThat made me want to cry. I almost did. Oh, Peter

[mystery_sock]

I will admit, at first I was a little confused with how sane you made Peter in the "now" parts....But then I thought Peter is now dealing with a broken Nathan, so he put his problems aside to deal with that.
Peter has been pretending to be sane for a while now - his whole Hero Paramedic act is part of that, or so he thinks. He is so delusional that he has no idea that he's a mess; in this story when he thinks about the fact that he doesn't even go home anymore most of the time, how he threw away all of his stuff in an attempt to rid himself of who he once was (and is), he only just glances at the fact that he might be doing these things because he's fucked in the head. Besides, even if he did understand his problems, he knows that there's no way that Nathan can help him - any more than through togetherness and intimacy, so he goes for it - in a slightly skeezy way; the first impulse one has if one suspects someone is psychotic should not be "Oh, I should fuck him"!

And yet, it's them. They have their own ways of working stuff out. ;)

[charone]

I love Ritual. As I was reading (60) Heather Nova was playing Truth and Bones and Ritual 60 was just intense, powerful and beautiful.

My healing will be like someone mention up post, go back and read from the beginning. Hey bout time I finish, there may be another Ritual.

[mystery_sock]

My healing? ... Hmmm ... I don't think there will be any. I'm hurting so much already that I can't sleep (or at least I woke up early, which is just a different form of insomnia).