fic: Ritual (60): Connection

[mystery_sock]

Here; have a Thanksgiving treat!

Title: Ritual (60): Connection
Pairing, other characters: Peter/"Nathan", Emma
Rating: NC-17
Genre: Dark Romance/Angst
Spoilers: through episode 4.10 "Brother's Keeper"
Word count: around 7300 words
Warnings: see pairing and rating; mild bloodshed
Summary: A lost Nathan turns to the only thing in the world that he

Comments

[lyxie]

Beautiful. Simply beautiful. With added bonus of great smut.

I'll admit that I smiled when Peter opened the door in Shadowboxing and Nathan was there. Nathan flew into his arms and gripped Peter like he would fall apart if he let go. When he felt like something terrible had happened his immediate instinct was to go to Peter. And that made me insanely happy even though it wasn't really Nathan.

I also loved to imagine what happened after the hug and I'm so happy you decided to make that into a Ritual story.

Make it better, Peter. Make it all better.

This is sad and not sad (for lack of a better term) at the same time. On the one hand, it's lovely to see that Nathan trusts Peter enough to break down in front of him. He trusts him enough to go to him for help and trusts that Peter will make it all better. On the other, we know Peter can't fix it...no matter how hard he tries.

Break me

That made me want to cry. I almost did. Oh, Peter.

I will admit, at first I was a little confused with how sane you made Peter in the "now" parts. Peter was fucked up before the first eclipse and after everything that guy has been through...well, he has been deteriorating for some time and now he just a complete mess emotionally. His grip on his sanity seems pretty loose at times, too. And it's never going to get better. In fact, it will probably just get worse and worse and...well, you get it.

So, you can understand my confusion, right? But then I thought Peter is now dealing with a broken Nathan, so he put his problems aside to deal with that. No matter what issues he has with Nathan they, as he said, are never over. So it does make sense. And written wonderfully...I was just a little slow on the uptake for a minute. :)

(We've seen Peter do it in canon. That episode this season...where Nathan shows up at the hospital like some neglected girlfriend saying he called Peter four times...and Peter says he's sorry and he forgot, which is complete bullshit, and when they talk Peter offers to go with Nathan...even though you can tell he doesn't really want to.)

And talk about huge role reversal! It was always Peter going to Nathan for help and Nathan providing and now it's the other way around.

There is so much between them and you somehow show it all without blatantly pointing it out.

Both the "then" and the "now" were heartbreaking in different ways and you just write it so well...

Okay, I have talked quite enough! Great job!

[mystery_sock]

I will admit, at first I was a little confused with how sane you made Peter in the "now" parts....But then I thought Peter is now dealing with a broken Nathan, so he put his problems aside to deal with that.
Peter has been pretending to be sane for a while now - his whole Hero Paramedic act is part of that, or so he thinks. He is so delusional that he has no idea that he's a mess; in this story when he thinks about the fact that he doesn't even go home anymore most of the time, how he threw away all of his stuff in an attempt to rid himself of who he once was (and is), he only just glances at the fact that he might be doing these things because he's fucked in the head. Besides, even if he did understand his problems, he knows that there's no way that Nathan can help him - any more than through togetherness and intimacy, so he goes for it - in a slightly skeezy way; the first impulse one has if one suspects someone is psychotic should not be "Oh, I should fuck him"!

And yet, it's them. They have their own ways of working stuff out. ;)