My niece and nephew came over and we had a nice family game of May I, which possibly was one of the most intense games I've played. We started out this time with four decks of cards instead of the usual two (we always have to add at least one more for the last hand anyway), so you'd think it would have been easier, but no. It's like, you KNOW there
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As you can imagine, nobody saw it. But I didn't understand why, and I pretty much freaked out. I was able to laugh at myself... eventually. I still remember how the bottom fell out of my stomach when I saw that I had zero comments.
I think that's happened once or twice since then, but fortunately, I got my first experience with that particular trauma out of the way early!
Hmm, I wonder if the norm is so we can try to look all cool and casual, like we don't care? Because yeah, that's obviously completely unrealistic.
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Last fall I posted to a comm and forgot to actually include the link to the story, and then I was like, wow, I guess this pairing was even less popular than I thought. *facepalm*
But that kind of technical error provides a lot more peace of mind than just not getting a hoped for response, or even the response you've become accustomed to.
I've learned over the years to manage my expectations down, but sometimes I am still stung by it, and it takes me a few days to get over it.
I wonder if the norm is so we can try to look all cool and casual, like we don't care? Because yeah, that's obviously completely unrealistic.
I think that's part of it, and I also think that in a mostly female space, a lot of us have been conditioned towards the kind of modesty that doesn't allow us to take pride in our work or enjoy accolades for it, and to admit to wanting praise is unseemly and arrogant and entitled.
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There's a Zen place? I want to find that.
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Yes. It's always the stories that I'm immensely proud of, that I'm in love with, that I seem to receive the least feedback on. It can be frustrating, and I've thrown my share of curse words, but what can you do? *laughs*
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I always eventually come around to laughing, but it's hard sometimes, especially when you do think you've hit one out of the park, and there's just *crickets* in response.
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Niiiiiiiiiiiiiice cookie.
When my relationship with feedback (by which I mean, any, including beta feedback) gets too weird, I start writing crackfic for my eyes only. Only now, I'm doing it on my phone. So my phone contains a lot of weird, short, utterly random self-indulgent DA fic. And I still have feedback to answer from July.
I think I need to hone my feedback coping mechanisms.
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And you know you should send me some of that crackfic, if it is Max/Alec, or Alec and Cindy.
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(Hell, I think I started one of them for your birthday, thinking I'd have time to finish it. Ahahahahaha. Work. It eats me.)
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In general, I do find public discussions of feedback expectations unseemly, because the cumulative effect is to create the impression that it's all a numbers game, that it's a competition, that value and popularity are the same thing. Which has nothing to do with my experience of feedback (giving it or getting it), and is a stance I violently disagree with. Maybe you disagree with it too; but the way you phrase your italicized internal monologue, you appear to be buying into those underlying assumptions.
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I don't buy into those underlying assumptions intellectually, but I think sometimes emotionally it is hard not to. I am pretty well aware of all the reasons people do or don't leave fb, and well aware that those reasons are not generally a reflection on any particular story in and of itself, because there are so many other variables involved. But there have been times when that hasn't really mattered because I've felt that they were. It's not rational, but it is real. And I think not talking about it at all makes people feel even worse when they do feel disappointed in the response a story receives, like they're not allowed to feel that way. I'm not talking about the "I won't write anymore if I don't get X number of comments" people, either, though I imagine it might appear that there isn't a real difference.
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I mean, this is not talking to a neutral third party, here. The people who read your ordinary posts are the same people who are reading your fiction. We are the people who failed to give you the feedback that would satisfy you. To claim that your musing does not carry within it the kernel of an accusation is disingenuous.
So unless you really want to accuse -- that is, to act wanky and entitled, which I do trust is not your intention -- then no, there is no polite way to air the topic in public.
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