i'm getting that tingly spine feeling again... oh no [-.-]

by the way, we're are in the 3rd week of me wanting to get into a fight. I don't know why i want to fight so much. Maybe it's to be able to say i've been in a fight. i think i may be all talk though

i am.

had coffee and vodka

2 screwdrivers

3 rum and dr.peppers

i'm good now.

i'm numb 

it's been over a year but i still remember your scent ( Read more... )

i wonder who pete is ( Read more... )

i just took a bath.
i filled up my tub with hot water and i layed there for about 45 minutes, just thinking.
i thought about my life and the way things are going.
i thought about the past, the present, and the future.
i thought about being old, being young, feeling alive.
i thought about people, who i miss, who i can't stand.
i thought about karla, ( Read more... )

i should know, i'm living it

they keep secrets and lurk in the shadows.
they wear masks and are always fine.

i'm living with strangers
and emotions don't flow well through this household
or if they do they get discarded like red kegger cups after a wild saturday night party.

i'm living with strangers
but the worst thing is they wish to remain as so
and there is no use in trying to ( Read more... )

it feels like my lungs need more air then they could supply.
i become asthmatic near you.

So I have found a pattern. Every girl i've ever been hung on up is because the relationship never ends correctly. There is never closure, never a goodbye kiss or a hug. It's usually "alright so this isn't working out but i still want to be friends" (which is ( Read more... )

things I'm currently regretting ( Read more... )