has sucked major ass. let's see ( Read more... )

everyone is making goals for the new year. i have one that i want to work on.

being more dependant on myself and not others.

it's a big one, but i can do it. I have to if i'm going to make it through another year.

I'm spending this new years alone. I guess i'll get use to this. A lot of shit has happened and well i'm to tired to talk about it.

so happy fucking new year. I'll probably be asleep when it rings in.

i find out...that i have not been getting blown off at night...when he turns around and talks to her all night. Yes it's only been 2 nights...but he couldn't hang out tonight cause he was sleeping from being so tired from staying up way to late talking to her. And then come to find out he woke up to talk to her tonight. Yeah I read her live journal ( Read more... )

It looks like Lan is coming down for the allele show on the 13th. The show i thought i was going to be able to really enjoy. now...i'm probably going to drive myself and go back to being alone. Cause I know how confirmation that she has a crush on him. Yay huh? And she's staying at his house. So no going back to his place. He's not to happy that I ( Read more... )

I just wanted to update just a little ( Read more... )

Did you ever wake up and realize that the life you've been living is pretty much not real and that you're all alone. It's weird and hard to explain. But I think today was one of those days. I woke up already kind of depressed. Then things just started happening to make me feel even more alone. Though I do have to admit a friend of mine on line ( Read more... )

I guess it's time for an update again. i'm not home much anymore so it makes it hard to update. Work realy sucks. Today was John's last day. We went to dinner with another manager that's going to helping out. that was fun. We had a great convo on the way home...about penis' (yeah he's gay :P) Very very funny convo. But yeah work is going to suck. I ( Read more... )

Well I'd thought I'd update just because the last one was kind of a downer. Things are ok, busy but ok. I'm all set for school. All I have to do is register. I'm only taking one class for the time being. But hey one is better then none right?! Work sucks. And now even more. My boss is leaving. This time it's for real. He's transfering to another ( Read more... )

I warned you in the title. it's your fault you're still reading ( Read more... )