just a small update...
I just wanted to update just a little.
Josh and I actually had a long talk about everything. On the way home from a show. He got calls all night...and of course one was from Ashley (I'm starting to really hate this girl). He wasn't happy to begin with when he went out but I played the guilt trip and he came out. He started to have a really good time. then all of a sudden he went to pissed off. I finally started to drag it out of him exactly what happened and all that. Anyways long story short we had a huge talk. I actually told him everything. that I feel our relationship is going to totally change once Lan gets here. And well I let him listen to his Linkin Park song. See with every relationship and friendship there is usually a linkin park song that describes my feelings and everything to a tee. I don't usually tell people that let alone let them hear their song. But I made him listen to his cause it has a huge message behind it. It's number 7 on the Medoro (yeah I can't remember how to spell it) cd. Anyways...I think that hit him pretty hard. We got back to his house and well then he shaved his head. I mean bald. Guess he needed a change. I had to help of course lol. Then yesturday I hung out with him after work. Went to a chirtmas party with him and his roommates. When I was leaving his house. He stopped me and told me "You know, our relationship will never change?!" Of course I told him to not make promises he can't keep. I told him when you get a girlfriend...whether it be Lan or someone else, they aren't going to like another girl laying and cuddling in bed with you, or taking up all your free time. He told me no...but that's why you will take it up together. Yeah which won't happen cause I'll be the third wheel and won't like that at all. But it's a little reassurring that he does care a lot about me. He told me he's even told Lan how much I mean to him. So who knows...I'm just going to enjoy it while it last and accept it when it happens.
Josh and I actually had a long talk about everything. On the way home from a show. He got calls all night...and of course one was from Ashley (I'm starting to really hate this girl). He wasn't happy to begin with when he went out but I played the guilt trip and he came out. He started to have a really good time. then all of a sudden he went to pissed off. I finally started to drag it out of him exactly what happened and all that. Anyways long story short we had a huge talk. I actually told him everything. that I feel our relationship is going to totally change once Lan gets here. And well I let him listen to his Linkin Park song. See with every relationship and friendship there is usually a linkin park song that describes my feelings and everything to a tee. I don't usually tell people that let alone let them hear their song. But I made him listen to his cause it has a huge message behind it. It's number 7 on the Medoro (yeah I can't remember how to spell it) cd. Anyways...I think that hit him pretty hard. We got back to his house and well then he shaved his head. I mean bald. Guess he needed a change. I had to help of course lol. Then yesturday I hung out with him after work. Went to a chirtmas party with him and his roommates. When I was leaving his house. He stopped me and told me "You know, our relationship will never change?!" Of course I told him to not make promises he can't keep. I told him when you get a girlfriend...whether it be Lan or someone else, they aren't going to like another girl laying and cuddling in bed with you, or taking up all your free time. He told me no...but that's why you will take it up together. Yeah which won't happen cause I'll be the third wheel and won't like that at all. But it's a little reassurring that he does care a lot about me. He told me he's even told Lan how much I mean to him. So who knows...I'm just going to enjoy it while it last and accept it when it happens.