well...
It looks like Lan is coming down for the allele show on the 13th. The show i thought i was going to be able to really enjoy. now...i'm probably going to drive myself and go back to being alone. Cause I know how confirmation that she has a crush on him. Yay huh? And she's staying at his house. So no going back to his place. He's not to happy that I want to drive myself. It actually threw us into a fight, which we haven't finished and he hasn't called back yet. Am I wrong not wanting to drive up there with them? I don't want to be the third wheel. I hate that feeling so much. Should I be a good friend and suck it up? I'll probably end up doing that. Cause that's what I always do. I be the good friend and push all my shit aside so i don't hurt anyone. Oh joy...here comes the tears. Time for me to hide my feelings and all and be the good friend i always am. Why does this always have to happen to me? Always the third wheel. He tells me he feels like the third wheel all the time. Which I call bullshit. But whatever. God...I hate this. Maybe I should move with my family?! Fall off the face of the earth to Tenneesse and not worry about anything ever again.