When women in movies are sad, they always have a shoulder to cry on. When they are relapsing with that bad decision person, they have that sassy friend to stop them. More and more of my adult life involves isolating myself and dealing with things on my own. I'm not that sad now, but the pangs come and go and they're always at my lonliest.

As I'm coming out of this years-long depression, I realize that that thing that I thought was growing up was just part of the depression. That thing was not being enthusiastic about celebrities or...anything really. I didn't like much on tv, I was never really raving about a movie, etc. That is coming back, and it's super great. I have feelings ( Read more... )

I got a threat last night from the crazy (as you might expect), that he was "going to call Playstation" and have my device bricked. I found this very unlikely (I have the reciept, if I'm not mistaken, he doesn't have the serial number and all I'd really have to do if they did block access to the device is call them up and explain the situation), ( Read more... )

There's nothing like realizing you don't know your own brother well enough to get him a Christmas gift. So that's a thing ( Read more... )

The last two and a bit months of my life have been so surreal that I can just pull myself out of the events and not even feel like I'm the one in them.

It's like...the first 20.2 years of my life were this one tv show about this lame, goofy girl who has friends on the internet and zero social skills and next to no hopes for romantic endeavors. And ( Read more... )

Essentially, I have started to deduce that the majority of my mental blocks against doing certain things are irrational. So I'm going to set up some life goals for myself, to base the next space of time on:

-Take the ACT - This is simple enough. I'll get more scholarships for it, I won't have to worry about taking it, etc. The next testing time that ( Read more... )

whenever I am doing something that I'm proud of or just in general, and I happen to mention it to my mom, she has to get involved in it. She has to know how to do it better and she has to take over it. If I argue with the changes she is suggesting, or fail to follow her suggestions, not only does she get really angry, but then she talks about how ( Read more... )

Pros:
Education
Mental stimulation
Validation for careers
Social life
Boys

Cons:
Money worries
Time consumption
Being a "freshman" all over again
Having four more years of school?

I don't think my family get how upset I am and I'm not positive I want to share it with them ( Read more... )

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