And another thing
whenever I am doing something that I'm proud of or just in general, and I happen to mention it to my mom, she has to get involved in it. She has to know how to do it better and she has to take over it. If I argue with the changes she is suggesting, or fail to follow her suggestions, not only does she get really angry, but then she talks about how stupid I am for not using her brilliant idea, to other people.
Like: the looks I do on lookbook. She always knows the best way to put MY outfits together. Even when she doesn't. I'll be really proud of something that I like and I think other people will like and she will try to tell me how dumb it looks until I believe her myself. If I just need a photographer, she will do the artistic direction her way, even when I know what I want. My poses are dumb, my feet look dumb, I'm not making a good face. All this until I choose the photos I hate that she thinks will be great for the "look." And then I end up with these horrible main photos that no one hypes (like today) and she just shrugs it off because I'm the one who was making stupid faces in the photos she took. I try dude. I really enjoy dressing nicely and taking photos of it, and I want to be pretty, but it's hard when your toughest critic is your mom.
And when I ignore her instructions and suggestions, I end up with some of my most popular looks, things I am proudest of, things that actually look good and professional.
I am just really tired of being put down constantly by someone who complains all the time about her parents putting her down all the time when she was a kid/teen.
Like: the looks I do on lookbook. She always knows the best way to put MY outfits together. Even when she doesn't. I'll be really proud of something that I like and I think other people will like and she will try to tell me how dumb it looks until I believe her myself. If I just need a photographer, she will do the artistic direction her way, even when I know what I want. My poses are dumb, my feet look dumb, I'm not making a good face. All this until I choose the photos I hate that she thinks will be great for the "look." And then I end up with these horrible main photos that no one hypes (like today) and she just shrugs it off because I'm the one who was making stupid faces in the photos she took. I try dude. I really enjoy dressing nicely and taking photos of it, and I want to be pretty, but it's hard when your toughest critic is your mom.
And when I ignore her instructions and suggestions, I end up with some of my most popular looks, things I am proudest of, things that actually look good and professional.
I am just really tired of being put down constantly by someone who complains all the time about her parents putting her down all the time when she was a kid/teen.