today i am a bit underwhelmed of how things turned out was supposed to go to wise guys and it just didn't work out. kinda sad i don't have much else to do here so i think i may just buy shit i don't need :)

so today i got up and said to myself. self i'm gonna join a gym today and i did!!! I'm now a proud member of sports academy in L town. the most kick ass gym in town also the most expensive but they have everything there.. classes machines a pool yoga pilates racket ball tennis courts everything... i'm so excited to work out!!! i just want to get ( Read more... )

So as you all know carson and i are through.. he continues to call and text but it just aint happenin' i'm back to my old self and can do whatever i want... i've missed me... i know now that i was just trying to make him happy but i wasn't and it was not good ( Read more... )

Carson and i are through for good... i feel really good about this because he was definately not anywhere near what i wanted.... he was the exact oppositte in fact... he cut me down and yelled all the time over nothing at all... it was a volitile relationship it's nice to have my life back ( Read more... )

Holy crap it's been forever here people... anyway lots of stuff..... still with carson that's all cool.... kick ball tomorrow can't wait... i haven't played kickball in forever i bet i suck... no one will want me on their team if i get picked last i'll cry ( Read more... )

So I don't really know how this happened but i now have a boyfriend... his name is Carson, which isn't my favorite name but he doesn't look and act like any carson i know. Anyway he's a sweetheart but he can tease you to no end... but he's awesome!! He's great you should all meet him... although he does tend to get jeleous of me hanging out with ( Read more... )

we played and had fun,, so much fun in fact i was rolling with laughter the whole time ( Read more... )

While my life is turned upside down,,, i decide to make candy and sugar cookies.... yes they are tasty but it seems that when i make them i don't really care to eat them... meh oh well ( Read more... )

"Sometimes people put up walls not to keep others out but to see who cares enough to tear them down."

I have so many walls.... it's practically impossible to get past my happy fun image... I really wish i wasn't like this.

i'm so stupid sometimes.

Timmy's funeral was so hard... i just sobbed and sobbed... we had to sing "in this very room" not many of my family made it through the song. I had to hardest time that day. jenny and jocelyn came to support me. I love them so much they are the best friends in the world. I couldn't ask for better friends. I've lost the only cousin my age... ( Read more... )