"The devil and god are raging inside me"

[moleitlover]

Timmy's funeral was so hard... i just sobbed and sobbed... we had to sing "in this very room" not many of my family made it through the song. I had to hardest time that day. jenny and jocelyn came to support me. I love them so much they are the best friends in the world. I couldn't ask for better friends. I've lost the only cousin my age... now i'll have no one to fight me for the silver dollar at the family reunions.....it's difficult when i think about it but i'm doing a lot better.

Happy thanksgiving to all!!! i'm excited for stuffing :D I had to decorate our table this year so i got a bunch of those leaf bunches from the dollar store and cut off all the different fall colors and sprinkled them across the table. I found these really cool hand painted gords and pumpkins that were center pieces. It turned out a lot better than i had expected it to.

I think Eric has had enough of me... I really screwed things up and it kills me every day.

Listening to brand new's cd online brings me joy..... at least for the moment