OMG its so hot. *pants* I hate the heat. I'm sitting here at my inlaws *eye roll* typing from their dial-up computer. Sloooooooooooooooow. Def not used to it. On the 16th (i'm keeping notes because comcast will hear it out if they raise any hell with me) i noticed my net was slower and slower and then POP no net. The modem was just not getting a ( Read more... )

Well aside from having a bad night three nights ago and scaring everyone to death (sorry bout that) everything went well the next day. On the 10th I took Sherida to Romney to see the doc. I think this is their last chance on getting disability. I didn't realize it was so hard. Seems anymore you gotta be almost dead to get the thing. *shrugs* After ( Read more... )

Its a feeling of hopelessness. The title just sums it up. You feel like there is no other escape but deep down inside, you know its not the answer. I need help and I need it now.

Don't wory I'm not really going thru with it. But its out in the open now and i just hope i can get the help i need.

Slept till 1:30 today but I was up and down all day since about 5am. I fell asleep *thank god* last night at midnight and dex woke me up at 2am getting home from work. So we ate and watched half of the movie we got from netflix (i'm baaaack) which was the second national treasure movie. So far its awesome like the first. I didn't get "Alvin and the ( Read more... )

I probably got a half an hour or maybe a little longer. I don't know. Dex left at 2am on monday morning and didn't get in till 2am the next day. Yeah. Long shift. Therefore he's snoring very loudly and is taking up the whole bed so that may be part of the problem. Now that I'm wide awake, contacts in, sitting here with the fan blowing on me, its ( Read more... )

all day longi've tried to write in this thing but i couldn't do it so i grabbed my notebook and tried again. i wrote almost two pages. speaking of writing...i need to finish that letter to my grandparents. maybe i should manuely write that too. i need to work on my spelling ( Read more... )

Well I shouldn't say that because I haven't had one in a long time, but today at sheetz i was having a panic attack. good thing I wasn't paying in change because it woulda went everywhere. not sure what brought it on. thinking about stuff (what's due what needs paid being near broke) and sitting in the heat. I took my neighbor to the bank and I ( Read more... )

hmmmm for some reason my bolds,italics, and underlines didn't show. Well most of them i've read but only in high school. others by myself during my TIME at booksamillion. sound like a prison doesn't it?

stupid computer adware won't let me on AOL. i had a virus and it corrupted a file.

There's a book that was just recently released called "Stolen Innocence" by Alissa(?) Well. I think that's the author. Anyways this woman was part of the latter day saints and was forced to marry at 14 and somehow she escaped. The leader of this sect was charged for I think child molestation or something like that. I can't remember but it looks ( Read more... )

So I've decided to use my time of unemployment to heal. It'll be my healing time. Getting in touch with not only the big man upstairs but also with my emotions and starting fresh. I wanna concentrate on today and not so much on the future. And the PAST....well that's what this place, youtube, and other resources like dailystrength.org is for. ( Read more... )