wow...i'm updating...this might be the last time...thinking about getting rid of this thing...too many memories and it reminds me to much of sophomore year...and it's been a long time...i'm not really sure how i'm feeling...i'm not sure about a lot of things...but i do know for some reason i'm happy...everythign is working out alright and it's good ( Read more... )

god...i don't know what was wrong with me tonight, but i just didn't feel like me. I began to seriously think about leaving...leaving verona, leaving all i've known for 12 years of my life...going to college and having things never be the same again. Then i began thinking about who i really am, what i like about myself...how i've grown up and ( Read more... )

a very very long while...life is pretty good...once again doing the summer show...going away for four days to a leadership camp...working in the mornings...hanging out at night...the same as every summer before...it seems like nothing ever changes around here...that i'm the same person i've been forever...something is missing from my life...i don't ( Read more... )

Look into my eyes - you will see ( Read more... )

well it's true...this weekend was amazing and it really helped to straighten out hte mess that i had created for myself...brian and i are great...we needed this time to jsut be together and remember what what we were missing...umm life has totally gone back to normal, i don't feel depressed anymore...i'm actually really happy...well except for the ( Read more... )

yeah so my english midterm really made me think today...now i know that is corny...but it did. We had to read this short story entitled reunion...and well it's about a boy who's father is like a complete stranger to him because he hsn't been in contact wiht himfor so long...ever since his parent's divorce...and then after all this shit that this ( Read more... )

well this entry will probably be ended up being directed towards one person, but everyone can enjoy. I'm a jerkstore...and i have no excuse for being that way. The littlest things have been bothering me and i mean i was ok for a while, and then i had a relapse...and now i'm ok again. Maybe its' jsut being a girl and we're like that...but i hate ( Read more... )

eh...today was alright...except for the fact that i had a feeling of total wierdness all day...i feel so isolated from people it's amazing, but i guess i kinda brought that upon myself...maybe it was jsut today though...col has basketball, mariana has school work cuz she's sooo smart...and i have fame...i dunno, i guess i need like GNO in a bad way ( Read more... )

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i can't even describe how great everything is now...i have no diea whether it is jsut the fact that i am finally being my own person...finally loving me for being me, or if it's because of brian...i mean i don't wnat ot base my happiness on a guy...like i usually do, but i have to give him credit..it's great...it's jsut nice having him care about ( Read more... )