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i feel ill
so a friend of mine came over with me after work to my house. all evening complaining of back pains. when i got home i made mention of dental medication that helped me with my pain that i had some extra of. he caught a look in his eye that was awful. he aggresivley asked for it and at first thought nothing of it. then he starts flipping out about ( Read more... ) -
my life
is a joke. -
im trying not to stalk
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i fucked up
the rest of my life and jen french doesnt want anything to do with me. i wanna blow my fucking brains out ( Read more... ) -
i just
looked at my last post and it sucks. ha. i knew what i was doing when i broke up with jen was wrong. still i did it in a pathetic attempt to fix my life. thats not how things work. i gave up the one person i actually give a fuck about still. she was there for me when chris died and tried to be there when adam died and i just turned her away. i ( Read more... ) -
long time
no see lj. a special shout out and thank you to anna fed for helping me even remember this still existed. so ya. adam hartzlers memorial service was yesterday. kid died like a day or two before christmas. and i look back and realize mad of my christmas' suck ass. saying goodbye to his dad was so hard. ive been thinking alot about life and death. ( Read more... ) -
goodbye.
wow. worst christmas ever... how the fuck does your family forget to tell you about christmas dinner.... is that not saddest fuckin thing you've ever heard..... and im working through the holidays. and i dont even know what to say anymore. just shut up sit down and fuck off. everyone will forget you soon enough. story of my life. -
weak ass bitches dont speak up
civility isn't that hard.
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its all up in the air. -
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i wish i was else where.