i fucked up
the rest of my life and jen french doesnt want anything to do with me. i wanna blow my fucking brains out.
i only broke up with her cause i was stressed about adam and schmidt dying. and it sucks she doesnt see that and wont forgive me. i know i was wrong but i cant go on without her.
i feel so dead inside i threw up at ethans house no booze.
first she stopped saying she missed me.
then stopped saying she loved me.
then just said goodbye.
my breathings all wrong, and my heart beat might break my ribs.
im a grown ass man. i should not be crying. not like this.
this is all wrong.
yesterday would have been schmidts 23rd birthday.
im miserable.
i only broke up with her cause i was stressed about adam and schmidt dying. and it sucks she doesnt see that and wont forgive me. i know i was wrong but i cant go on without her.
i feel so dead inside i threw up at ethans house no booze.
first she stopped saying she missed me.
then stopped saying she loved me.
then just said goodbye.
my breathings all wrong, and my heart beat might break my ribs.
im a grown ass man. i should not be crying. not like this.
this is all wrong.
yesterday would have been schmidts 23rd birthday.
im miserable.