As of resent my life has been hell. I'm loosing my grandma more and more each day. My parents were on the verge of divorse and I got thrown in the middle of it all. I really hate my pain right now. I'm stressed out and I have no clue how to handle it. That if you think that is bad. A chick wants to jump me and well I kno I can take her and all but ( Read more... )

Hey all the retreat was off the hook we had so much fun. I miss it. The funny thing is I came home and fought with my mom on accident. LOL......So me and everyone hung out I had a blast. We forgot towels and pillows I forgot everything. Me and Katie shared a bed and all I have to say is that you are the blanket hog lol. And I did take a shower how ( Read more... )

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Well I've been talking to micheal a lot. I love talking tohim. He got really pissed off on Saturday cuz Kyle came over and we got in a huge fight. He felt so helpless and alone. He hated that feeling as he watch through my web cam the fight. And I broke down crying and he saw that and wished he was at my house. The next morning it was all about ( Read more... )

Okay last night me and micheal talked we got in an argument and made up. We do that a lot. It was over my friend because I fall asleep on the phone with him. And Micheal said I'm sleeping with him which isn't true. Anyways while we were fighting I was on the phone with my friend so he knew what was going on. And the kid felt so bad because he did't ( Read more... )

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Today I'm sitting as the time goes by and I wonder why I have to sit with this to hide. I wanna cry. I hate feeling so low that it hurts me to know I will never get better. And I'm hurting that I have to take a pill 2 times a day till the day I take my final breath to stop my brasin from any more damage. And I'm tired of not knowing how to feel ( Read more... )

So today I'm going back into the hospital. I have to see my nurologist. I take medicine and its so small. I have been trying to figure out how to handle my stress. But its hard. I just found out my brother got into an accident and almost died. I broke down. I'm really tired today. I acually feel as if I'm losing my mind. But I'm not am I. Well I ( Read more... )

To add to my stress I was demoted at the fire house due to my condition. But I was told I should get my postion back after I get all my test done. I'm still upset yesterday I had my MRI. That machine is not fun. I enjoy the messages. I will be hearing whats going on today or tomarrow. What sucks is I dont have a computer at home cuz my sister broke ( Read more... )