My feelings
Today I'm sitting as the time goes by and I wonder why I have to sit with this to hide. I wanna cry. I hate feeling so low that it hurts me to know I will never get better. And I'm hurting that I have to take a pill 2 times a day till the day I take my final breath to stop my brasin from any more damage. And I'm tired of not knowing how to feel inside and it hurts me so hard its just like a knife. I learn as I go but I'm going no where so I feel as if I'm living in fear. So as I have to take my pill it goes to my brain and stops the pain. But I tend to still have times when I forget the time. And I get yelled at cuz I'm not use to it yet. At 6:30 am and alo pm. I take a pill to stop this. But its hard and I feel I can't do it. I need help I'm in need. I'm down on my knee's. God please help me I wanna be normal as any other. I'd rather not have this and go on to another day as I sit and lay in the hay and watch the sun fade away. As a healthier me and a better me. I'm done with these feelings that inside of me. And the trouble is I can't get rid of this stupid diease. It just sits there and stay's hidden from me. Till a trigger strikes me and basically hurts me. I'm done yes I'm done get it away from me.
Well I'm going to West Gennesse's Semi-formal. It should be fun. I'm gonna feel weird about going. I'm also going to there Senior Ball. I think that will be fun. I also have Prom this year time to get all pretty again.
I'm also going on retreat. I can't wait I just have something to say to katie. I have to wake at 6:30 am so I will be awake before you hehehe. It's gonna stink but I gotta do it. I hope I don't annoy anyone waking up at that time. But its ok and I take my second pill around I think the time we eat dinner I dunno I have to find things out. I hope this year will be fun. And we don't get into a lot of trouble like last year.
I have a conference this november where I travel down toward New York City and compete. I can't wait I'm also running for president. SO I know I will get votes because ppl already said they will vote for me. Wish me luck lol. I don't really think I will have a problem.