Life Lately

[mikz]

One of the things I get out of travelling is the opportunity to reflect on life. I think life really has been as good as I've been saying all year, but I still feel a need for change.

My relationships are good.

Comments

[klrmn]

Maybe nothing will resolve it. Even if I had everything I wanted, a poly family in an urban but leafy intentional community with little fluffy animals in some nonexistant city that satisfied my every need, happily getting by on fewer working hours and more travel time, the ability to quell the world's greed and ignorance and cure all the hatred and suffering, I'd still feel like something's missing, that something needs to change. Maybe this feeling is just a manifestation of never being completely satisfied with myself, and if I can learn to accept myself and trust that people really do love me and that I deserve it, this feeling will go away.

sounds like you might just like change.

[mikz]

Could be. Maybe I'm afraid that the change I need will be so radical that it will rock other things I like off their foundations. I'm not sure why I would be, though... surely moderate change would be helpful, too.

Thanks for giving me a new thought direction. It's good to hear from you.

[davesslave]

"Maybe this feeling is just a manifestation of never being completely satisfied with myself, and if I can learn to accept myself and trust that people really do love me and that I deserve it, this feeling will go away."

Mik, you deserve love just by being the person you are, in the moment.

[mikz]

Thank you. I really do appreciate your insight sometimes.

[urangme]

Alot of the poking I've done at the world and myself around this issue seems to be tied up in making a difference. Not sure if that might be the "thing" for you, but it looks like it is for me, so thought I'd share.

[mikz]

This is a great observation-I've been stuck on the 'making a difference' feeling for a long time, too. The big question is how? What am I passionate enough about to keep doing enough to actually achieve something? That's just one of the questions, though. I've picked at this a lot in past; maybe the feeling I'm writing about it just means it's time to look at it more closely again.

Thanks!!

[paisleychick]

sounds all good! hugs from afar. :D

[mikz]

At least for now we're in the same hemisphere again! ;) Always lovely to hear from you.

Constant craving

[aussie_libby]

"I'd still feel like something's missing, that something needs to change."
Self-love maybe? I wish to second davesslave comment :-).
1) Love yourself 2) people love you 3) you deserve love. Try those three on for size, just humour me. Maybe it can become your mantra? Or I can take my platitudes elsewhere. :-)
(It was great to see you the other night!)

Re: Constant craving

[mikz]

It was great to see you the other night, too. And yes, I think I could really use that as a mantra. It's a simplified version of another mantra some close friends helped me come up with.