so i'm actaully updating. and it's not that i havent been so busy, i've just been genereally neglective of this place. and i've also started to write more by hand, i just got a belated birthday present, three journals of beautiful paper. hopefully that will be the foreshadow that i should be writing more by hand. even though the cramps are too much ( Read more... )

does this make you think harder about who you are? hopefully so, probably not - i guess i'm lost in the universal idealism that one would assume runs prominent through my viens ( Read more... )

how does it feel to be one of the beautiful people?this place is dying, and i guess it's a bit okay, because, as long as it doesn't lie, then it doesnt really matter. few and far between is still few and far between. i guess i just need somethmore important to say. somethimore important thcan infulence someone somewhere ( Read more... )

i've got so many words ( Read more... )

everyone go and judge me and then come back here and leave comments. i want advice and all that. new songs will be coming too.

i think i've lost complete dexterity in my fingers, i've lacked any real sense of where any of the keys on this keyboard is. although i type free form and i type quickly, i've been making spelling errors and typoes left and right, and i wonder if it's because my thoughts run much quicker than my fingers can, or if it's becuase my brain is stalling ( Read more... )

this is for you, sebs ( Read more... )

why is it that i write the best music right after my heart breaks? hm, i ask that. does pain result in a better actualization of how i feel? i don't know, such a confusing world. i wrote a spoken work poem but im not going to post it until i record it. because people will laugh at me...

everytime i feel safe, something inside breaks...
and other unconcluded happens of my life that leave me without closure and without understanding of the world around me. stability? solid ground? something that can help me put together these pieces.

i had my show on thursday, and i've been intending to write something about it, although i really don't know what to say. i was excited for it, it happened and now it's over and i'm on to trying to get another show. i need to figure out a better way around this. I WANT TO MEET SOMEONE WHO WILL CHANGE MY LIFE. it's weird playing live, especailly ( Read more... )