I feel so lost, so confused. I just want him back. More than anything. I couldn't eat but before this anyways, but I was at least hungry and missed solid food. That doesn't even matter anymore. I seem to be taking in more caffeine than usual, and sleeping less. Nothing matters, I think that's bad. I keep crying. Classes, passing periods, work, home ( Read more... )

It's my two year anniversary! Two whole years of smiles, hugs, cuddles, kisses, fights, arguments, and maturing with the guy that makes me feel invincible. Countless nights on the phone, thousands of online conversations, and a nice handful of arguments to keep our relationship exciting. Tens of thousands of thoughts go through my head about this ( Read more... )

What in god's name is wrong with me?

I would give the world if he would let her go. Let her fall out of his life because she is killing me in mine. I have dreams about walking in on the two of them, everywhere I turn she seems to be there, mocking me. It's driving me insane and I just want it over. What could I do to get her out of our lives?

Imagine three of your female friends, and one has AIDS. That friend will die, there is no cure. FACT: One in three women in South Africa are HIV  positive.  One third of your female friends would die of this epidemic, which is one of the fastest growing epidemics in the world right now.

Now imagine having AIDS and becoming pregnant, knowing that ( Read more... )

He wonders why I'm scared something will happen between us when he goes to McCallum. That one girl that I can't stand to look at when she hugs him, talks to him, looks at him, ANYTHING!!! I just can't stand it. She and I have had trouble with boys before, including dating one of my exes and liking another (Oh JOY!) He says nothing will happen and I ( Read more... )

I had a debate with a young man a couple of weeks ago. It ended in him calling me "Hitler's Reflection" and walking off. The argument was over abortion. He was pro abortion and I am not. So it erupted from there. His argument was that if people made a mistake with a child as a consequence, they should not have to live with that burden. I asked him ( Read more... )

I know that he loves me more than I will ever know. But sometimes I wish he would stop playing his game and talk to me with his undivided attention. It seems that I am constantly talking to myself and as much as I love to talk, it gets boring when you talk to yourself for hours on end. And then I will give up and sigh and mope and tell him I will ( Read more... )

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The slow dance wasn't as special as I was hoping. I still felt emotionally violated. It was disturbing, being his first girlfriend and not being his first dance, to not be the first girl to be wrapped in his embrace, it made me cry. I wanted that, I was looking forward to that part of our relationship. I guess I'll move on, bigger things to deal ( Read more... )