Hey life, bring it on ( Read more... )

I am so unbelievably lonely.
I am so alone.
I feel like I am losing myself all over again.
I am lost in all these feelings.

Why can't you be here and save me again?
Why can't it be you.
Why for the rest of my life am I going to be thinking of you.

Today is the first day ( Read more... )

Why can he be normal at work ( Read more... )

In the beginning of this year I had wrote a few things I wanted to accomplish..
those were..
Dear 2011.
- Finishing another 2 semesters of school and still having good grades. done
- Finding a new job.done
- Getting happily married on 10/31/11done- Finishing all my wedding planning on time and having things just go as perfectly for planning our ( Read more... )

I got a preview of our wedding pictures.
We will be getting everything in the mail soon.

Just as I thought. I am completely unhappy. That's okay though. I am not a good one to get an opinion from. Apparently Damien likes them.

So this entire disapointment thing hasen't gone away in the least ( Read more... )

I really need to a do a serious flush of my friends.
How do I end up with people that are only looking for a free hand out?
That can't even say THANK YOU.
Wait..
I thought we were friends?
....
I am so angry.

Things are going to change drastically with people in the next week here.
I am out of tact and niceness.

I am classy.
Gotta love middle of the night break downs.
I will have insurance again soon..
and back on my meds I go.

I miss being NORMAL. With normal emotions..
not spiking every time I have a thought process.

Someone lied to me ( Read more... )