If tears could build a stairaway,
And memories were a lane,
I'd walk right up to heaven,
And bring you home again.

No farewell words were spoken,
No time to say goodbye,
You were gone before I knew it,
And only God knows why.

My heart still aches in sadness,
And secret tears still flow,
What it meant to lose you,
No one will ever know.

I don't post entries anymore because I never have anything good to say. Things just keep going from bad-to-worse-to-even worse for me...and I'm SO damn sick of it. I can live with broken cars and no money - but I can't take any more things that completely crush me mentally and emotionally. I was pregnant, and now I'm not. I went to the doctor ( Read more... )

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So, when my mom, sister, and I went to look at the second reception site, I was informed by the woman who works there that that the day we were trying to plan on (March 22) is the day before Easter next year - so that put a snag in our plans. So then I had to talk Brian into the 29th, because he wanted the 15th - but I just didn't want to go ( Read more... )

These are the flower girl dresses my mom and I decided on. They're really cute and I think Tia and Sara will look adorable. I originally picked ones from David's Bridal - but now I've decided to stay with the designer of my dress (Alfred Angelo) for all of the dresses - bridal gown, bridesmaids dresses, and flower girls dresses.

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So I lied about having finally picked a bridesmaid dress. After finally coming home from New York and talking it over with my mom and looking through the book of dresses, we thought it would be nicer to pick a less formal dress that the bridesmaids could wear again if they wanted to. So this is the new (and hopefully final) pink. The colors are ( Read more... )

This is the bridesmaid dress I think I've decided on. I haven't decided how I'm going to do the brown-pink thing yet though.

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Weddings and Work and finishing College need to come with warning labels about how stressful they can be - especially when combined. I'm about to go crazy trying to plan a Chicago wedding from New York while working a lot of overtime at a job that is, while at Scholastic, pretty far off the mark of what I actually want to do with my life. The only ( Read more... )

I am officially the proud owner of a gorgeous wedding dress. It arrived yesterday, and now all I want to do is wear it all the time. ...March seems so far away now!

The timing is always off, and the worst things that can happen always happen at the worst time. I have two weeks left of college, with so much work left to finish - yet I feel like my world just shattered and I no longer have the focus or drive to finish my school work. I feel like I've lost a part of myself that I don't know how to get back nor do ( Read more... )