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Should I read my medical records?
x-posted from mumblingmadman.com
Before we get to the question about whether or not to read your records. You need a little information. I often get asked, am I allowed to see and read my medical records? The answer to this question is a resounding yes! Under the HIPPA laws (in the US) you can ask to see and\or get a copy of you medical records. ( Read more... ) -
Hospitalization: Locked Psych Ward
x-posted from mumblingmadman.com
I’ve been fortunate to be hospitalized 3 times over the last couple of years. Most people would not call being admitted to a locked psychiatric ward an auspicious event, but in my case, it probably saved my life, at least once anyway. Actually writing this post is a step forward for me, who I am, is not really a ( Read more... ) -
Disability and the SSA
x-posted from mumblingmadman.com
Yesterday marked the end of a long and foul chapter in my life that started almost 5 years ago. A new chapter, yet to be written, appears as I turn the page. Over the last five years my condition has spiraled downward. Mood changes began to happen more and more frequently. My ability to concentrate, loss of memory ( Read more... ) -
I wish I could do more to ease your pain
x-posted from mumblingmadman.com
Life is a wild ride, a rollercoaster of sorts. Bipolar, which I also suffer greatly from, is like riding the rollercoaster without the benefit of bars and straps to hold you in your seat. You are twisted and pulled from all directions as life flies through its curves and loops. You cling on for your life. It seems ( Read more... ) -
Bread Crumbs: A gift to someone special
x-posted from mumblingmadman.com
I relatively new friend, across thousands of miles of oceans, mountains and plains wrote a single sentence to me that stated simply they could no longer feel and felt suicide was the only way to alleviate the cold thoughts that were having. I’ve been to this place; it is place in the wilderness where darkness rules ( Read more... ) -
Edge of Sleep
x-posted from mumblingmadman.com
Last night I stayed awake until almost 4AM. What I was doing - watching videos, an assignment made simply to distract my mind - is unimportant, but when I finally laid my head down on my pillow thoughts began to wash over me in heavy waves. Trying that I might to fall asleep, I began to think of sleep, to focus on ( Read more... ) -
R/O PTSD
x-posted from mumblingmadman.com
Today was a day unlike all of the 14,931 that have preceded it in my life. Today I went to the Veterans Administration Medical Center (VAMC) to attend an appointment with my psychiatrist. I assumed going into it that it was a normal appointment although I’ll concede that I see my psychiatrist more often since my ( Read more... ) -
Reflections of happiness
Tonight while mowing the yard I paused to see my son and his girlfriend cross the street to walk to a park not far from our home. Her arm was entwined with his as she softly laid her head against him. I paused and watched this tender gentle moment. So happy, two young lives meeting softly in this messed up world. I had the illusion of looking ( Read more... )
