i want one of them wii things. there fun!

there is this big fat black girl that walks around my neighborhood every day and sings at the top of her lungs. its crazy.

im single agian. fuck it. i think its time for me to have some fun again!

i had the wierdest and very life like dream about adrian last night. and when i woke up i had to remember he had died. thats really upsetting when i dream like that.

im upset. in the last year and some months my lover has promised me so many things. and has accomplished zilch. i need some one who is going to be a man and follow through. im so dissapointed with my existance right now. nothing has happened since ive gotten out of high school. i just want my life to mean something. even if its a short life i still ( Read more... )

i hate dreams. everytime i dream something cool i wake up and none of it came true. its so disappointing to wake up and realize your life is boring and meaningless.

so i was doing some self reflecting when i was getting ready this morning and i realized that when i was doing drugs and was fucked up all the time, i was the girls that i hated back then. i was exactly the same as them. (well not exactly) but pretty fucking close. it feels kind of satifying to come to that conclusion. since i cant seem to remember ( Read more... )

i hate my house, i hate that i hear sirens every night and that i live next to a bunch of ghetto ass black people. i hate that stupid kids think they can throw their fucking garbage in my yard and tag on my house. i hate that theres ass hole stray dogs shitting all over and makes my front yard smell like crap and i have to look where im walking ( Read more... )

its amazing all the shit i used to tollerate and not let bug me. drinking and driving, certain things friends do at your house. but now most everthing pisses me off and i cant stand people being disrespectful or stupid. now if you want to be a dumbass you can do it elsewhere because ill tell your ass to kick rocks. just thought id get that off my

i have been feeling so blah lately. i have been sleeping an aweful lot lately and i dont have anything to do. i have no friends to hang out with so i sit at home and sleep and watch tv then i go to work. what a sad exsistance. i want to have some fun. i miss my sister. i cant wait for her to come home. maybe we can invent some fun to do together. :