niagra falls. this weekend. i really am thinking of going

definately making another i want to die livejournal update and yes i feel it more and more and more and more. everyday.

for all this basic and pathetic pissing i do about wanting to die to serve as a crying out and to find after i do. i think i am not actually healthy and will probably have a short life span and should not procreate or really expect much to happen ever. family history of heart problems. definitely could consider taking better care of myself but i ( Read more... )

i hate all my friends. i suck as a friend. i dont have friends. just waiting to die as usual. what year is it?

never broke up with some one and was afraid too since she's a recovering heroin attic and suicidal is a very pussy way and generally loves drugs that i've never ever done but hey i wasn't mean to be and there was no flame or real interest on my part so I get i care about myself at least somewhat to try to get out of it. so i did and got scared. 2 ( Read more... )

i am finally nearing my end, everything is falling in line. it'll be over soon. i think about it alot.

hey yay i turned 27 and i fucking hope for fuck's sake this is my last year cos i really fucking hate life and pretty much every thing makes me want to die and time just keeps passing on and i ain't getting better. hopefully something really unexpected will happen and will kill me dead because there is really no chance for me ever finding happiness ( Read more... )

hate being in love with someone there's no use fighting for

why does a girl tell you she's loved you for years and years and finally we come together and i fall for her and then it has to end immediately and yet she still feels the same way, and still says this is what i always wanted and things happen for a reason, no regrets, yet she breaks my heart for no real reason, she kills the fate we had and i am ( Read more... )

ha i still have an lg and my life in even more pathetic...